Ah friends....I have decided to bring my bad attitude to a close and return to you. I've been hiding away from the forum for the past 2 weeks due to:

1) "50 lbs Is Plenty syndrome" - where you decide 50 lbs is fantastic and you really don't feel like working on the next 50.

2) "PB'ing is Gross syndrome" - where you suddenly understand what restriction really is and have to learn what you can and cannot eat and contemplate eating only ice cream since it goes down so sweet and silky smooth.

3) "Plateaus Suck syndrome" - where you are embarassed that you spent $15,000 on WLS and then spend 2 weeks not losing - no, in fact fiddling around with the same 2 lbs over and over because you are working through an addiction to cream cheese.

Anyway - if you haven't had your second fill yet - watch out. That sucker is a doozy. But I think I've got it figured out and am now back on track.

Yep - I promised nudity in the title. The 3rd episode of my video blog tracking my journey has been posted and I filmed my fill. So my big old belly is flopping out for the world to see on youtube. If you like, take a peek at the link below.

Later tonight I shall brew a cuppa decaf and then slowly read through all your lovely comments and posts that I've missed, and just soak in the support of those who can really understand. Missed you all!

Becca!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <POUNCE>

See what happens when you pop up? Everyone comes out of the woodwork complaining about the same damn thing! LOL

I also have that 50 lbs left to go syndrome. It doesn't help that everyone is telling me how great I look and I look in the mirror and think, "Yeah, I'm looking pretty good!" But then I also still have these massive areas of fat in the thighs, hips and tummy and know that I need to get that remaining 50 lbs off! I've actually been on a plateau for the past three weeks as well. Been driving me crazy because 90% of the time I behave myself so well. I manage to stay away from carbs, eat lots of Protein, make good food choices, increased my Water consumption, etc etc etc, but the stupid scale wouldn't budge! The past couple of days it has decided to go down a half a pound a day each so maybe I'm finally breaking through. If not, my third fill tomorrow should do the trick!!! I believe I currently have 6.5 cc's in my large band which can hold 14. I have had good restriction, I certainly eat less than I used to by a LONG shot but I sometimes wonder if I'm still able to eat too much at a sitting. For instance, tonight I had a 6 oz filet mignon and two scrambled eggs with cheese in them. I was able to eat it all. I'm still quite full though six hours later and find that I'm rarely hungry throughout the day as long as I'm continuously drinking my water.

I did have a battle today with carb cravings. ANY carbs, whether they be sweets or bread or Pasta. I was at the grocery store today and had a more difficult time than normal staying focused especially when I had to buy my daughter cookie mix and icing for the Cookies she was wanting to make for her classmates, then having to smell them when she baked. So far I've managed to hold out. In fact I kept telling myself, tomorrow is fill day and you won't be able to have any of that so just hang in there!!! I did and I'm glad I did!

My next battle is exercise. I love to walk but I can't due to my plantar fasciitis, so I need to get on my bicycle and ride but haven't done so yet. I HAVE been much more active though, working in the yard, mowing, weed whacking, pulling weeds, etc. and I also steam cleaned the carpets yesterday in the house. This is stuff that I could have never done before so I'm really enjoying being able to get around easier.

Okay enough of my gabbing. Going to go watch Becca's tummy movie! LOL

Becca you are so cute and such a natural in front of the camera!!!!!! Great job!!!!!!!!!!!

And OMG I loved the nervous squirrel picture in the 2nd episode!!! I was cracking up!!!!

Hi Karen!! Thank you SO MUCH! You guys are so kind. It's actually so comforting to see that we are all going into that same stage of plateaus and the mid-point hump that we have to get over! I'm glad you are finally breaking through. After a few weeks of messing with the same 1 or 2 lbs, I finally broke the plateau early this week and about 4 lbs dropped off. Hopefully I can stay on a roll!

The exercise is a struggle for me too. I'll never be a gym rat - never. So I'm trying to just add activity like gardening and bike riding with my hubby and boys.

Let us know how that 3rd fill goes!! Be careful girl! I think my second fill will correlate to your third because my surgeon put in 3 cc's at the time of surgery. I was SO much more restricted after that second. In fact - I can't do scrambled eggs anymore unless I have them at dinner (things are tight in the morning).

Chew until your jaw hurts!!! Can't wait to hear how you're doing!

Your video was great! You look fabulous! Keep hanging in there! Slow and steady wins the race.

Hi! Becca. Welcome back. You look great!!

Glouster,

Why the unfill in April. Was there a problem with your band?

I watched the blog Becca. Very educational - maybe it should be on the introductory page as required watching for newbies!

Gotta say though, just as all of our post-op liquid to real food transition instructions were different, so are our fill experiences. With me, there is no numbing injection, and then in less than 5 seconds the nurse has the injection done...no partially sitting up or moving arms or anything. Weird.

Oh well, it is obviously working - you look fabulous, you have achieved a tremendous weight loss so far, and retained a great sense of humour.

Thanks

Thanks for watching! Actually, my first fill was similar to yours - a few seconds and we were done. No sitting up or anything. This second one took a bit longer to get into the port, so I was actually glad for the local anesth. this time! I'm not sure why it took longer - could it have been that we were holding a video camera over my doc's hand to record his every move for my blog? :biggrin:

Also, for my friend who encouraged me to get my "after" pictures up in place of the uber chubby "before" picture that I had been using for my avatar......is this one better? :thumbup:

Hey Becca! You are just fabulous!:biggrin2: I enjoyed your post and when I watched your video I was so impressed!:smile: I have only had 2 fills, but the second one I had my doc got such a good strong grip on it that when he went to pull the needle out ~ OMG ~it didn't want to let go and come out! :w00t: I think it's great that you are recording this journey! You look wonderful! :smile2: Keep up the good work!:smile: