This may be a surprise to many, but I feel lost lately. I feel like I have no idea who I am. Much like a mid-life crisis, but I think on a larger level.

I was the fat girl, who made everyone laugh (self defense of course) and was the center of attention. But the fat is gone, and now I feel lost.

So who are you once you loose the weight? I do not define myself as "skinny" but before I defined myself as fat. Nothing seems appropriate anymore!

Ok, first a disclaimer, I am NOT by any means a country fan! I hate it, but I heard this song today and balled my eyes out. I feel like it was written for me, for all of us! I have listened to it, 10+times in a row in the last hour. It is going to be my mantra....

It is by Jewel and called "Stronger Woman"....here is just some of it, but really check it out!

I’m gonna love myself

More than anyone else

Believe in me

Even if someone can’t see

The stronger woman in me

I’m gonna be my own best friend

Stick with me till the end

Won’t lose myself again

never, no

Cause theres a stronger woman

a stronger woman in me

light bulbs buzz I get up

and head to my drawer

wish there was more

I could say

another fairy tale fades to grey

I’ve lived on hope

Just like a child

walking that mile

faking that smile

all the while

wishing my heart had wings

well tonight I am gonna be

The kind of woman I want my daughter to be

I think this last line gets me the most, I want to be the woman I want both of my girls to be, and confused and full of self hate is NOT it!