I am cross posting this under here & April Avengers so hopefully someone can give me a good opinion on what is going on with me...so here it is.....

The last few weeks have just crawled by, but now that this week is almost 1/2 over, I cant believe my 10 day preop diet starts 1 week from today!! Sunday thru Tuesday is Disney trip w/ my kids & Tuesday starts my preop diet!! It's really sinking in now that this is gonna happen! 17 more days & I will be sitting in the hospital waiting for it to be over.

I am almost scared of what it will be like when its all over, I have spent so many months of researching and preparing and fighting w/ insurance, that I wonder if I will feel lost when its finally complete. Anyone else feel that way or am I just a nut case who shoulda failed my psych eval? LOL

I am so afraid of the post op pain, mostly knowing that no matter how bad I hurt, I will have to hide the pain around my family 'cuz they really dont want me to do this. Knowing that any complications or discomfort I will endure will be all alone (except for my LBT buddies) is terrifying.

I decided that for my sake and my kids sake that I will voluntarily stay overnight in the hospital since I am a single mom & I worry about being groggy the same day of surgery & trying to come home w/ my kids. They are old enough (14 & 8) to kinda take care of themselves, but I figured that would give me a chance to recoup a lil & come home Saturday instead of Friday afternoon (surgery is at 5am the 11th). My mom will keep the kids overnight & take my DD to dance class & my DS to the horse ranch & then come get me.

I keep trying to convince myself that this wont be any worse than the 3 laps I had for endometriosis/adhesions, & my gall bladder, but then these scary thoughts keep creeping into my head about all the complications I keep reading on here & that is just my luck to be one of those horror stories.

To top it all off, I have been getting terrible dizzy spells and episodes of very blurry vision the last week or so. I cant focus on anything! I am going to get lab work done tomorrow & then Thurs I am going to see my endocrinologist to see if its my thyroid or blood sugar thats causing this. Even though I have been doing the modified preop diet, my sugars have been extremely high. (331 last night) I take 1 glyburide a day right now, no insulin. I have lost 10 lbs in the last 1 1/2 weeks so it could be my synthroid needs adjusting, but I am freaked over the sugars being so high!! I hope they dont cancel my surgery because of that!

I just feel so weak all the time, its really scary. I think I may have gotten a little too gung ho on the modified preop diet after having the flu & never really gave my body the nutrients that it needed to recover from all the vomiting I did. Thats the only thing I can think of that could be causing this. Any ideas???

Thanks for letting me ramble on.....((((((((hugs)))))))))

I'm sorry that you haven't been feeling well. You might want to call your doctor before seeing him on Thursday just to let him know what's going on. Make sure you tell everything before having surgery.

I agree that some of the posts are scary but I think that a lot of the scary ones are from people who have older bands. It also makes me realize how important it is to follow the doctor's orders to a 't'.

Please take care and message me if you need someone to talk with. :thumbup: