The last few weeks have just crawled by, but now that this week is almost 1/2 over, I cant believe my 10 day preop diet starts 1 week from today!! Sunday thru Tuesday is Disney trip w/ my kids & Tuesday starts my preop diet!! It's really sinking in now that this is gonna happen! 17 more days & I will be sitting in the hospital waiting for it to be over.

I am almost scared of what it will be like when its all over, I have spent so many months of researching and preparing and fighting w/ insurance, that I wonder if I will feel lost when its finally complete. Anyone else feel that way or am I just a nut case who shoulda failed my psych eval? LOL

I am so afraid of the post op pain, mostly knowing that no matter how bad I hurt, I will have to hide the pain around my family 'cuz they really dont want me to do this. Knowing that any complications or discomfort I will endure will be all alone (except for my LBT buddies) is terrifying.

I decided that for my sake and my kids sake that I will voluntarily stay overnight in the hospital since I am a single mom & I worry about being groggy the same day of surgery & trying to come home w/ my kids. They are old enough (14 & 8) to kinda take care of themselves, but I figured that would give me a chance to recoup a lil & come home Saturday instead of Friday afternoon (surgery is at 5am the 11th). My mom will keep the kids overnight & take my DD to dance class & my DS to the horse ranch & then come get me.

I keep trying to convince myself that this wont be any worse than the 3 laps I had for endometriosis/adhesions, & my gall bladder, but then these scary thoughts keep creeping into my head about all the complications I keep reading on here & that is just my luck to be one of those horror stories.

To top it all off, I have been getting terrible dizzy spells and episodes of very blurry vision the last week or so. I cant focus on anything! I am going to get lab work done tomorrow & then Thurs I am going to see my endocrinologist to see if its my thyroid or blood sugar thats causing this. Even though I have been doing the modified preop diet, my sugars have been extremely high. (331 last night) I take 1 glyburide a day right now, no insulin. I have lost 10 lbs in the last 1 1/2 weeks so it could be my synthroid needs adjusting, but I am freaked over the sugars being so high!! I hope they dont cancel my surgery because of that!

I just feel so weak all the time, its really scary. I think I may have gotten a little too gung ho on the modified preop diet after having the flu & never really gave my body the nutrients that it needed to recover from all the vomiting I did. Thats the only thing I can think of that could be causing this. Any ideas???

Thanks for letting me ramble on.....((((((((hugs)))))))))

Your sugars are high, I know that can cause dizzy spells and blurry vision, don't know about the other medication. GOod that you're going to see your Endo, she/he can make sure you have it controlled for the surgery.

Good luck on the surgery, mine's on the 24th...

Sandy