So today was my final appointment and now everything will be submitted to insurance for the " approval " dun dun dun. I am freaking out. I am so invested in this now that I feel like I am going to lose it if I get denied. The NP today made it seem like it is iffy when I asked her because I have a " low BMI". Only at that office am I ever referred to as a low BMI. I have a BMI of 37, high cholesterol , PCOS, fatty liver and migraines. I really hope I get approved. My insurance requires a BMI of 35 and at least one co- morbidity which I have so why is this even an issue ?

Then another part of me. A dark part , is like I am selfish for doing this. What if I die and leave my young son without a mother because I couldn't do this on my own. I feel like a failure. I have tried to lose weight so many times and I can but I cannot keep it off. I gain it back plus more , and now the health problems are starting to pile up. I know the road I am walking down and where it will lead me. I know that if I get this and all goes well I will be a happier and more active mom. A healthier mom. A mom who will be around to see my son grow and hopefully my grandkids one day. But I cant stop that nagging feeling. Has anyone else gone through this ?

So many emotions. I guess i just had to vent and hope maybe someone could relate.

You should be ok according to the insurance requirements you described. The clinic is maybe not used to submitting low BMI patients.

GOOD LUCK.