In 2009 I had the RNY bypass. After a year and some and some changed I received news that I was pregnant (October 2010). March of 2011, was the worst day of my life. I delivered my first child at 19 weeks and held him in my arms until he stopped breathing. In deep depression I lost a lot of weight, I then again became extremely happy when I found out I was expecting again. I delivered my first healthy child June of 2012. Then I had my next healthy child November 2013 and my last and third healthy child November 2014. During all these pregnancy I could not manage to check the extra pounds. My lowest weight was roughly 200lbs. I am now 270 and it's my biggest failure. I have tried to lose the weight on my own but just can't seem to stay on track. Doctors have recently advised me that I have a gastric fistula and a hitial hernia. Also, the opening to my intestine which is connected to my pouch has a huge opening. This is why I never feel full, my food is being rerouted into my other portion of my stomach as well as being pushed through faster to my intestine. I have now started the process to have a revision which they will also correct the fistula, hernia and opening to the intestine. I have been advised that I will not lose a lot of weight as before but this revision will help me feel full longer which will lead to weight loss. I haven't gained that much and my weight has pretty much stayed the same over the last 4.5 years. I just need a little help to get me back on track.

First off, congratulations on your three blessings and I'm sorry for the loss of your firstborn. Secondly, this is NOT a failure, it's a bump on the road that you are meeting head on and taking care of. I wish, so many years ago , that I had faced my weight issue before it became the huge problem it ended up being . You are doing that! You see the problem and are addressing it now before it becomes worse! That is awesome! Take this day by day and you will succeed. I tell myself all the time, we are all human and make mistakes along the way, but that doesn't mean we fail. It means we get up the next day and strive for better! You got this!

As was said above, you are NOT A FAILURE!!! Look back to when you decided to have your first WLS!! You are now aware of what it wll take to get to where you want to be. I'm very sorry about everything that you have been thru. You can do THIS!! YOU HAVE GOT IT!! You know that you are going to be even more SUCECESSFUL because HEY guess what you know what it takes. So KEEP ON KEEPING ON!! I look forward to watching your new life unfold!!

As was said above, you are NOT A FAILURE!!! Look back to when you decided to have your first WLS!! You are now aware of what it wll take to get to where you want to be. I'm very sorry about everything that you have been thru. You can do THIS!! YOU HAVE GOT IT!! You know that you are going to be even more SUCECESSFUL because HEY guess what you know what it takes. So KEEP ON KEEPING ON!! I look forward to watching your new life unfold!!

Thank you so much for the positivity.