Weird stuff, a bit of a ramble

[mlbdl 86]

I surprise myself when I look in the mirror. When I try on a smaller size and it fits for the first time, I start to cry. I'm now in 10s comfortably, and can also get in some 8s, which I find shocking. I think I went from children's sizes to a 9/10 when I was in junior high. I don't ever remember being in an 8. I'm shrinking on the bottom more quickly than the top.

When I was heavy, I would push the weight around off my face to remind myself what I really look like. Now that I've lost so much weight, I can see and feel my jawline easily, and I feel bony. My collarbone sticks out (to me) and I feel bony on my upper chest (but I'm a 38G!). I've never had a nice round bottom - it was always wide, but flat. I've lost so much on my tush that I'm bony there, too. TMI, but moving a certain way on the toilet actually hurts my tush! I think I need to buy a cushioned toilet seat! I don't remember that being a problem when I was a teenager, but my butt actually hurts!!

I mention above that I would push my face around to remind myself what I look like. There are few people in my life that know me from before I got fat - my sister, Dad, and a few cousins. I've caught my sister looking at me, kind of shocked-like (but happy) - like she's rediscovering me. My dad has teared up looking at me, just thrilled that I had the surgery. It's probably the one thing in my adult life that he hasn't told me that I was wrong for doing. Everyone else is just amazed at how I look. Sometimes the comments don't bother me, especially from the people who know how important this was to me and that know that I had the surgery. But the people that don't know, and that I don't like, or that make a big deal about it (especially publicly), it really drives me nuts.

All my rings are too big, as are some of my watches and bracelets. Even some of my shoes are too big, which really surprised me because I've been the same shoe size since I was 12 (and I wasn't fat when I was 12). I'm still curling into myself, as I mentioned in another post a couple of months ago.

15 more pounds to go to the top of the weight range for my height. Not sure if I want to stop there. I'm not unhappy where I'm at now, but I know I need some more off.

I really can't get over how bony my ass has gotten. Ouch!

[Armygalbonnie 643]

Congratulations! What a change your have gone through both physically and mentally. You must feel great about yourself. Just imagine all the things you can do now that you couldn't do 93 lbs ago. Welcome to your new life!

[SharBear617 146]

Hahahahaha.....laughing at the "bony ass" comments...before surgery I had developed the "shelf butt" (could've stacked some books on there!), but now have the same issue you're describing being uncomfortable sitting. My daughter is in marching band, and this past Fall, sitting on those metal bleachers at football games and marching competitions....ouch!! But (no pun intended), working on toning muscle there, and still would NEVER choose to go back to the extra padding I had preop.

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[mlbdl 86]

Congratulations! What a change your have gone through both physically and mentally. You must feel great about yourself. Just imagine all the things you can do now that you couldn't do 93 lbs ago. Welcome to your new life!

Thank you!

[mlbdl 86]

Hahahahaha.....laughing at the "bony ass" comments...before surgery I had developed the "shelf butt" (could've stacked some books on there!), but now have the same issue you're describing being uncomfortable sitting. My daughter is in marching band, and this past Fall, sitting on those metal bleachers at football games and marching competitions....ouch!! But (no pun intended), working on toning muscle there, and still would NEVER choose to go back to the extra padding I had preop.

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I wouldn't go back, either! Time to invest in a portable stadium seat!