Hitting my 6 month anniversary, I'm so tired but after getting back on sugar and giving it up again, I am back to losing. It is my blood pressure that is the problem.

I am tracking my BP and one example was 77/66 mostly its in the 90's/60's, so after keeping a log for a few days I called my cardiologist to see about lowering my doses.

This is good news, but I am feeling a bit apprehensive about it all. My defibrillator hasn't shocked me in 3 years. Before that I was shocked at least 10 times, in 7 years. It doesn't sound to bad but it does cause some anxiety, well a lot of anxiety. One of my meds is a help you or kill you med that I may have to go inpatient to adjust. It is tempting to just gain a few pounds and maintain instead of take the chance while adjusting the meds. I'm happy here, it's just not the best I think I can do?

I never set a number goal in my head, what you see on my timeline is 150 just because it sounded ok, according to my BMI I should be even lower like 135, I got there once but couldn't eat to maintain,I just want to be happy and healthy.

I know what a problem to have, I could not have foreseen me ever thinking of maintenance this early. It sounds like such a major whiny baby topic.

The doctor calls me back Monday with my changes, I am going to give it a shot and drop this last 20-30 pounds. If it gets to bad with my heart then I will at least know I tried.

May make and appointment with my counselor just to work through the anxiety. Thanks for listening.

Remember Fluid is even more important in the heat!!!

my doctor has been slowly cutting out my blood pressure meds. I remember how high it was before I started treatment and it is a scary thing to adjust that medication.

I am glad you're keeping such a close eye on it, and I know that you will make good choices based on how you respond to the changes.