GibbsGirl

Some people are emotional vampires, you have to let them go and wish them God Speed. I'm having a neighbor situation and trying to remember that. What keeps coming to mind is you can't fix crazy!!! That and the rest of my neighbors have my back and bail money.

176 -3 pounds

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Hitting my 6 month anniversary, I'm so tired but after getting back on sugar and giving it up again, I am back to losing. It is my blood pressure that is the problem. I am tracking my BP and one example was 77/66 mostly its in the 90's/60's, so after keeping a log for a few days I called my cardiologist to see about lowering my doses. This is good news, but I am feeling a bit apprehensive about it all. My defibrillator hasn't shocked me in 3 years. Before that I was shocked at least 10 times, in 7 years. It doesn't sound to bad but it does cause some anxiety, well a lot of anxiety. One of my meds is a help you or kill you med that I may have to go inpatient to adjust. It is tempting to just gain a few pounds and maintain instead of take the chance while adjusting the meds. I'm happy here, it's just not the best I think I can do? I never set a number goal in my head, what you see on my timeline is 150 just because it sounded ok, according to my BMI I should be even lower like 135, I got there once but couldn't eat to maintain,I just want to be happy and healthy. I know what a problem to have, I could not have foreseen me ever thinking of maintenance this early. It sounds like such a major whiny baby topic. The doctor calls me back Monday with my changes, I am going to give it a shot and drop this last 20-30 pounds. If it gets to bad with my heart then I will at least know I tried. May make and appointment with my counselor just to work through the anxiety. Thanks for listening. Remember Fluid is even more important in the heat!!!

I had worries before and regrets right after, but it was all worth every minute. I would not change a thing.

When I was a kid, my grandparents had a picture of a wolf standing above a town looking down. I made up many a story about that wolf. I now have my own with blue eyes, I named her and she always watches my back. I have wanted one since I was 18 but it took till I was 43 when I finally decided on it. My oldest sister found us 4 years ago and we all decided a couple of years ago to get matching tattoos so I have the trinity symbol on my ankle. I would not change either one. I am not planning on another but you never know. I personally love ink as an art form, I figure to each his/her own.

179 0 loss

179 current weight and 169 goal thanks so much

Thank you so much, I'm in!!!

179

+3 ouch

I spent the entire last week in another state with my Mom watching my niece and nephew. I was bored, stressed, did I mention all week with my Mom and tired. I decided to carb it up, not really carbs but sugar. I decided to have dessert, basically every night almost. My sleeve held me in check with portions but sugar was not an issue. I gained 3 pounds.....3 3 is the magic number to slapping me back into my place. I am also now having to fight the sugar cravings I created again, annoying so annoying. Some of you might think why go through all of this just to fall so far off the wagon. Well I still fight the mentality every day that one cupcake or package of M&Ms won't hurt. I have always ate when I'm happy, ate when I'm sad and ate for energy. I have not been allowed caffeine in many many many years so I used sugar as a boost. As for the why, I thought I wanted a week of freedom, but really it was a week back in the prison of sugar. I played and I paid. So it's back to basics and back to feeling better, back to coloring in the lines. I refuse to beat myself up though, I am a success and will be a long term success!!!

182 -2

I'm 5'5" in the morning but only 5' 4 1/2 in afternoon. Bizarre but true.