Am I small? and more Fat mentality issues....

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

i went to target this weekend. picked a medium dress and extra small sweater off the rack. i wasn't looking for xs by the way but all they had was xs or xxl lol. i went to the dressing room and saw myself full length in the mirror and thought holy ****. i think i'm small. am i small? on the daily i feel just like i always felt. like i feel better but still fat. could it be that im not perceived as fat anymore? why is it so important? how do we switch over from "fat mentality" to what's real? to what's actually happening with our bodies right now? am i still viewed as "fat" by society? am i normal now? is a size 8/10 still fat? how will i know when to stop? all the questions you didn't realize would linger so long.....

Edited May 16, 2016 by pr_pitbullgrl

[Tmitch817 11]

Get-it girl! Your the size I aspire to be

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[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

@@Tmitch817 gurrrrrlllll i got here and then i got all crazy thinking im still fat gotta go for size 4-6. society is a killer with weight/size issues. it's ingrained in our brains. plus i live in vegas. a town full of whores and douchebags but they all skinny lol.

[Dub 9,945]

Looking great !!!!

[leahhindi 65]

Whores and dbags. Hilarious!! As for the thin beautiful young lady in the pic, keep up the great work. You look just amazing!

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[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

@@leahhindi LOL it's so much truer than u could ever imagine. #hatevegas

and thank you so much. imma keep going until i feel "right"

[KristenLe 5,980]

I think you look great - you still want some curves!! You don't want to look all skin & bones!

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

@@KristenLe well i already lost my ass. so there's that lol. but im trying to get it back. i still feel big to b honest with you. i don't know when that goes away

[KristenLe 5,980]

Well considering it took me a while to realize how humongous I got - I imagine it takes a while to realize you're not big anymore. . it's too bad we can't lose where we want - I hear the ass is always a big loser.

Edited May 25, 2016 by KristenLe

[pr_pitbullgrl 1,039]

@@KristenLe haha omg. i lost my ass so hard and i didn't even notice it till it was sagging off me. check it out (and these are "butt lifting jeans" guess if there's nothing to lift there's nothing to lift lol.

[Babbs 14,681]

@@pr_pitbullgrl

You look great! You're built very similar to me.

You're small, but you've got curves

[Lemm61 206]

Butt and boobs, always first to go.

[Ele marie 92]

You look great! I am the opposite I don't see myself as fat until I see a picture and then I am mortified but I have not been fat all my life or even very long.

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[CelesteMarie 129]

@@Tmitch817 gurrrrrlllll i got here and then i got all crazy thinking im still fat gotta go for size 4-6. society is a killer with weight/size issues. it's ingrained in our brains. plus i live in vegas. a town full of whores and douchebags but they all skinny lol.

Vegas isn't like that, lol. I know people call it "sin city", but it's not as bad as most most small honky think towns I've been to throughout the last 30 years filled with unhealthy, crack - head, tatted up (not that there's anything wrong with tats in good taste, lol) bottom - feeders. I hate that people perceive Vegas like you portrayed it. But oh well, I guess I can't change that. I find it different living here in Vegas. I never see the downtown or strip area unless I have visitors. I also think there are many health conscious people here, not necessarily fake, like California is perceived, but healthy. Maybe I'm just seeing "my little world" in Vegas and I'm delusional. Either way, keep up the good work and let's just thank God we made it through the surgery and are on our way to better health!

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[Barry W 336]

I was so used to seeing myself really big in the mirror, that when I lost 40lb I felt like I was pretty trim when I saw myself in the mirror. Being about 120lb overweight at the start though, I wasn't trim after losing 40lb! In fact, when I later saw myself walking down the sidewalk reflected in a plate glass window, I suddenly thought "wow, who is that guy, is that me? I guess I am still big!" - I wasn't used to that view, so I saw myself without some mental filter or bias, and the reality was, I was/am still big.

It definitely takes some time for your brain to adjust to new norms of self-image. I now realize that my brain had gotten numb to the sight of my obesity and accepted that as normal. These are good adjustments though - you can throw out what society thinks if you want of course - but, the bottom line is that there is plenty of medical evidence that slimmer is healthier in terms of mortality and morbidity - death and disease rates.

Edited May 21, 2016 by Barry W