Please move my post if I am not in the right place.

I had gastric bypass in 8/2012. I fasted to a weight of 275 and in the next three months I dropped to 246.

I lost my health insurance at that time and couldn't go to the doc anymore. I never lost anymore after the 246. I stayed there until the weight started quickly come back on. I never felt like I had restriction and I ate like I didn't. I ate a lot of slider foods.

(My Father also died the same year and I was in another state isolated from my family. I should also tell you that I hurt my back in 2009 and I had trouble walking - one of the reasons I had the surgery)

There's so much to believe that there was something wrong with my surgery (I was hungry when I woke from surgery and ate the whole Clear liquids platter and I never felt much restriction at all.)

I feel so much shame about what I keep thinking as my failure to adhere to the "rules." On top of that I started having trouble with alcohol in 2013 and I am an alcoholic now, currently seeking treatment.

I don't like to regret things but I always think that I would have done better with the sleeve but if the problem is really psychological with me, it wouldn't have mattered.

Now I finally have insurance and I can seek an opinion on the surgery and meet with a dietician. I will not be pursuing a revision or other procedure unless I have at least a year of sobriety.

Thank you for reading.

I am so sorry for your loss and for your struggles and challenges.

As you are being treated for alcoholism then you know the first step is accepting that you need help. I am glad you recognize that.

I agree that you should make an appointment with a surgeon, a NUT, and even a psychologist first thing to talk about your stays and goals. If you haven't had blood work in a while they will definitely need to check your Vitamin levels etcetera.

See if the bariatric program has a support group. If so, attend. You may also want to find a 12-step group like OA (OA.org).

A good therapist will be critical for helping you recover and move forward in a positive way.

It is never too late to be successful and create a life that you deserve.

Sending hugs.

I really feel for you. Things don't always go the way we expected. It's great that you have recognised your battle with alcohol. Not everyone has such in site.

Sobriety will give you back so much more,than a normal liver function test. It will give you piece of mind, self belief and improve your health and self esteem. This is a difficult game that we play but it is worth it. First things first, believe you deserve the best and take one day at a time.. The rest will follow. You are worth it.

Hi Little Dog Lover-(I am one too )

You've been through alot and I'm sorry for your pain. I'm also an alcoholic (sober since 5/25/2000) and I congratulate you for seeking treatment! You can do this-believe in yourself. Please keep us posted.

Hugs

First of all, I am so sorry for your loss. I have no advice because I have never been in that situation but I do want to say you have admitted your mistakes and your substance issues, there is NO shame in that. You are acknowledging it and that is one step closer in correcting it. Good luck and I wish you nothing but success!