I only have 3.6 more pounds to lose and I will be able to schedule surgery and start my 4 week pre-op diet (Phase 3). I am HAPPY TODAY. And scared. And happy. And nervous. And then happy again.

For the last month I have worked my ass off doing my requirements, losing weight. All in the face of:

Tax audit

Fiance job demotion

15 year old picked up at a party now has probation officer til May to avoid a "frequenting" charge

House repairs we can't afford

Etc. But it all blew up the same week I started this. And Ive kept on track. Its scary.

3.6 pounds seems so small, and at the same time, feels like 20 pounds away again. Normally putting such pressure on hitting a "number goal" isn't something I do ( I go by my size) but its my requirement...and the closer it gets the more it feels like *something* else is going to happen. Something else will finally happen and break my resolve to complete this and I will end up gaining or regaining (rapidly, as I am wont to do) the weight I have lost, and not make my requirements by the time I am supposed to.

So. I have my Water bottle. And my Walk Away the Pounds DVD is queued up to play on my PS3. Im so close.

That is great!!!! You can lose that for sure!

I am so sorry to hear about your struggles. When it rains it pours!!! Hang in there, things have to get better!!!!!