I am just about 7 months out and down 64lbs.... this started because I ate too much once or twice and i made myself sick, then I was so afraid of stretching out my stomach that even if I ate just enough I still felt like I had to throw up and now its a compulsive thing, I feel like I have to do it constantly, and not when I eat everything but if I exceed my carb limits or whatever ill make myself puke to get them out.... I am very aware that this is a problem, but im a nurse and a mom and admitting that Im doing this to myself is terrifying, mostly because im terrified that if I stop my stomach will somehow stretch out. I don't typically binge although I have a time or 2.... Does anyone have any suggestions, I know I need help I guess im just looking for some reassurance that im not alone.

Honestly, for all my self-esteem and self-hatred i have, i never developed anorexia or bulimia, but my sister did. We are both over 30 now and i know she still has some issues with it, and being in the army and constantly exercising, has both helped and hindered her. I still think she's in the denial phase.

I say all this to tell you i do understand the thought process. I have been a self-mutilator since my late teens, and it's been several months since i've had a problem controlling the urge, but i know there are many things i need to work on. I say this because i know the surgery isn't going to make me happy or love myself. It might help me because i'll feel better and be able to do more of what i want, but it's the headgame that is the real obstacle.

You may not believe, but I will think of you when i'm praying. We all have struggles and that in no way makes us bad people and in your case, a bad mother. It's just something we are going through. And with a little encouragement, we can take another step towards healthy lives and minds.

I am just about 7 months out and down 64lbs.... this started because I ate too much once or twice and i made myself sick, then I was so afraid of stretching out my stomach that even if I ate just enough I still felt like I had to throw up and now its a compulsive thing, I feel like I have to do it constantly, and not when I eat everything but if I exceed my carb limits or whatever ill make myself puke to get them out.... I am very aware that this is a problem, but im a nurse and a mom and admitting that Im doing this to myself is terrifying, mostly because im terrified that if I stop my stomach will somehow stretch out. I don't typically binge although I have a time or 2.... Does anyone have any suggestions, I know I need help I guess im just looking for some reassurance that im not alone.

hey, I was thinking about you today and wanted to check up on you? How are you? Have you worked through some of this stuff? I hope you are in better spirits.