Tomorrow is the big day!

[JerseyJules 862]

Nervous, anxious, excited,stressed, sad,depressed,happy...I am every single one of those emotions right now and my stomach is in knots. I go in the hospital tomorrow at 12:30 pm for my Sleeve procedure, and I didnt think this day would ever come.

Nervous- Im nervous cause i hate medical facilities and surgeries, I have had quite a few and i always get butterflies the day before and the day of the procedure.

Anxious- cause I just cant wait to just get this over with already, all the preparation and tests and reasoning with myself as to why I need to do it, I just want to be done with it already and move on.

Excited- I was looking at pictures from when I was down to a 34" waist and was 215lbs of pure sexiness, Im excited to get down there again cause I remember how good it felt and how confident and in control of my life I felt.

Stressed- the back and forth reasoning in my head, combined with the unknown and the permanency of the decision I had to make has stressed me beyond belief these past several months.

Sad- cause I know the party is over for me..The time has arrived for me to face my worst enemy and my best friend and part ways with it forever. food...Im sad to see you go for now, but perhaps we will have a healthy relationship after this, not the abusive one sided relation ship we have had for the past 40 years..

Depressed- Im depressed at the fact that I have lost control of my life and my body to the point it has had to come to this. I am ashamed of myself that my motivation to do the right thing has gone away in the past few years and I have given in to food and let myself fail once again in my life.

Happy- Im happy that there is a way out for me and I have chosen to do it finally. I have always told myself "Im not fat enough to do that surgery" when I saw friends do it and loose a ton of weight. I always did not understand and called it the easy way out and thought of them as weak minded cowards...Until I realized this one thing

No matter how hard you try,you can not solve a permanent problem with a temporary solution.

[shellyd88 463]

@@JerseyJules I know we all relate in some way in a few weeks I'll be going in for my sleeve feeling the same things wishing you well and a great recovery

[Pepper123 320]

Good luck on your journey!!

[VGB 130]

OMG! I feel the exact same way as you! The only difference is when friends had the surgery I was a tad but jealous! Wishing it was me that was beginning the journey! On February 9th it will be me!

[alwaysvegas 702]

@@JerseyJules Wow, you so eloquently stated so much of what I felt just before surgery! Looking back, I have no regrets and I now have so much more to look forward to.

Best of luck on a flawless surgery, quick recovery, and a long healthy life!

Let us know how everything goes when you can!

Edited January 11, 2015 by AlwaysVegas

[ganier14 7]

I love your comments u made @jerseyjules. I have been dealing with the decision to have this surgery for 3 years now. I have been going to bariatric support groups for about 6 months and most of the men there was twice my size. I'm 325. And I have tried all the diets, gyms, pills, etc. But I suffer from obstructive sleep abnea, Rheumatoid arthritis, joint pains, and swelling feet. Been recommended by 3 different doctors to have surgery. And now I'm set to have the sleeve in 2 weeks. I'm extremely nervous. But reading ur comments uplifted me some. Thank u. And good luck to u.

[downsizingdiva 460]

I have the same mixed emotions. Will be thinking of you and praying for you tomorrow!

[kimby5619 3]

Tomorrow is the big day for me as well! Best wishes!!

[JerseyJules 862]

I will post an update the second I can. I am getting more and more anxious as the day goes by and I will tell you this clear liquid diet today SUCKS!!!!

[dms724 26]

What a great post! My surgery is tomorrow too and I share all of the same sentiments.

We can do this and it will be fabulous!!! Good luck!

[JerseyJules 862]

Ugggg...Few hours to go and my nerves are killing me..Hoping I made the right choice.

[kimby5619 3]

Same here! Haven't slept much, but it's definitely the right decision.

Good luck!!

[JerseyJules 862]

I also woke up with a massive headache...Dont know if its from nerves or the lack of caffeine or sugar.

[kimby5619 3]

Probably all of the above

My hands are a little shaky, just anxious to get the show on the road!

[JerseyJules 862]

I just keep second guessing myself on this whole procedure..