Hello everyone!
My name is Heather and I just wanted to pop into the forum to read about other people's journeys and for moral support.
I just returned from TJ where I had VSG surgery with Dr. Elias Ortiz on December 21st, 2014. I'll make post after this about the details of my surgery, but first, here's a little background:
Both my brother and I have been overweight all our lives. He was always big, even when he was a baby, but I didn't start to blow up until I was about 4 years old. Regardless, poor eating choices coupled with a lazy lifestyle has led me down a path where I am now in my 30's and bigger than ever. My weight is a little over 310 and I'm about 5'6". I work a super-stressful corporate job, so at the end of the day all I want to do is go home and decompress. The more busy my job gets, the less I take care of myself. Some days I only averaged 1 meal a day and was a notorious Breakfast skipper. Sometimes I was too tired to even care about dinner.
I started to look into the surgery options a few years ago, but I had only heard of the VSG surgery this year. I have had several friends get the RNY gastric bypass, but I was turned off by the dumping syndromes and malabsorption problems. It wasn't until one of my friends who was about my size started to look noticeably smaller. I pulled her aside one day and asked her if she was on a diet or what she was doing. She confessed to me that she snuck off to Mexico to have the surgery. She passed along the information for A Lighter Me and told me about what a great experience she had. Just having someone to talk to who had been through the procedure was awesome! I had so many doubts and negative thoughts about Mexico, but her first hand experience really helped me to look into things with a more open mind.
I just look forward to not being trapped in this body anymore. I look forward to breaking the hold that food has over my life. Dieting for me has always been a struggle. I have tried just about every fad diet, pills, shakes, you name it. The only thing that I was ever semi-successful at was just counting my calories. I used MyFitnessPal and tried to keep my calories in the 1500 to 2000 range, but I was ravenously hungry ALL THE TIME! No matter how many healthy Snacks I ate, I was still hungry. It just got to the point where I was tired of starving myself, tired of being hungry, tired of feeling like I didn't have any energy, so I would crash and just eat whatever I wanted.
I'm hoping that losing the weight will take the stress off my joints to where I can move better. I love doing Zumba and other dance aerobic type things, but I have to be careful. One wrong move and I'll tweak a disc or pop my knee. Can't wait for that to go away!
I lost my mother to super obesity, and I know that it's going to take more than a surgery to change our lives. I am fighting lifelong bad eating habits coupled with depression. I want to start going to therapy/counseling so I can start addressing the underlying issues with my overeating. I fully intend to make this work. I JUST turned 30 and I feel like now is the time to take control of my life.
I don't want to get diabetes. I don't want high blood pressure or high cholesterol. I don't want to be at risk for heart problems. I don't want to have to go to "special" stores to buy clothing. I don't want to tell people I don't want to go hiking with them because I would slow down the whole group because I have to take a rest every few minutes. I want my body to reflect how I feel inside. I look at my body now and see someone filled with sadness, someone who doesn't want to take care of themselves and has let themselves go. I know people talk about how you need to love yourself first and the "fat acceptance movement" and that "big is beautiful" and that's all well and good for them, but that is not how I feel inside. I don't want to be this way anymore. And I'm hoping that this surgery will help me get to where I want to be.
I know this was an incredibly long post, but if you've made it this far, thank you for reading. I hope that everyone here has had a positive experience with their surgery and I hope to keep posting as I continue my journey.
~*~Heather~*~