When I lost all my weight I was foolish enough to think that I would finally be happy. I would be small and look like everyone else. My road has been torturous and painful and as I sit here and write this I am upset. I cannot do anything I wanted to do. I cannot go on long drives, or ride a horse. I got a bike and can't ride it either. My bed sore on my tailbone won't allow me to do anything like that. I feel so cheated right now.

My ass is always burning and sore and the plastic surgeon is only going to fix part of it for now. He thinks there is more sponge in there that has to be removed. I have cried so many tears over this surgery and what has become of me it is unreal.

Plastics are another issue that has just sent me into a blue zone I can't seem to kick.

I did this to make my life better and on Nov. 6th it will be two years of hell.

What were you foolish enough to think about WLS expectations? I had so many and now I have none.

I am so sorry to hear of your troubles. you have been such a positive inspiration to me even though we have different surgeries. I am going through some troubles with my band. I am doing whatever I have to to hang onto my band. but when your surgeon starts talking about your insurance and what it covers you began to think oh oh. although after 2 mos. my slippage is fixed and my band is back in place the damage to my esophagus is big. I cried all the way home the other day and its a 2 hour trip. besides all my knee problems and surgeries and bulging discs in the neck and bursitis in my shoulder I often wonder what God has planned for me next. but the wt. loss keeps me going. it feels so good to be smaller and to wear clothes that don't make me look like a elephant. when depression hits this is what I concentrate on. I am not on insulin anymore. yea! I am not on heart medications anymore yea! my arms fit into a large tee shirt yea! so when feeling down try and concentrate on what is good in your new life. I pray that your bedsore heals. and your pain becomes less. we are here for you. hold on and give yourself a big big hug.