1 year out and in trouble

[coriek 15]

Today is my first post on this forum. I'm excited to announce that tomorrow is my one year anniversary. I lost a total of 48 pounds (THATS IT) and I've gained 10 of it back! I'm not proud of this but I need to put it out there to keep myself accountable!

All the things that I've done wrong...I know exactly what happened and I know exactly what I need to do. I ate way too much and ate all the wrong things! I haven't exercised since the surgery and stopped caring about the weight loss. I'm so scared that I'm not going to be able to do it and I'm fearful that I've already ruined it! Right now I'm trying to refocus myself and do it right...if it's not too late.

I've started the 5 day pouch test and basically went back to the post op diet. Today was a success. Day one! It was hard but I think I've got it?!?!

[DaiDai 31]

I applaud your honesty and transparency. Maybe you can find a support group near you for additional support. Why do you think you haven't been as successful as you would have liked?

[coriek 15]

So many reasons...I thought for sure I was going to rock this journey! I was so happy and ready. I did my research, I was careful and lost weight quick. I think loosing it so quickly made me brush off exercise. Then I met a friend in town who had the surgery and looked amazing. She proceeded to tell me that she ate what ever when ever. She also added that she ate very small portions of everything but it clicked with me. I was so sad and mourning food that I actually told myself..."I can be careful and do it like her!" It was a slippery slope and I spiraled out of control.

Don't get me wrong...she did nothing wrong! I take complete responsibility for what I did.

I asked my husband yesterday, if he was disappointed in me? He said he loved me first, then paused...I gave him permission to be honest and he said I've lost my will power. This also resonated with me!

So here I am...looking for support and accountability!

[DaiDai 31]

Try not to beat yourself up. It's not too late to turn this around. Your accountability starts with acceptance and asking for help. You will not be able to do this on your own thats why I suggested a support group. Since you can't cheer yourself on right now you need people who have walked your walk to do it for you. Don't allow yourself to fall into self pity ....YOU GOT THIS!

[IcanMakeit 1,318]

Ok, so now you know what doesn't work. Just because you made a mistake and took a wrong path does not mean you are doomed to failure. You are now doing what you need to do to get on the right path: start over at the beginning. It won't be easy, but it is definitely do-able. You can do this!

[Kathy812 794]

You've joined the right online support group. most people here are very encouraging. The important thing is to get support online & in person. I haven't had my surgery yet, so I can't really offer much advice. But I'm sure you already know what to do, application is key.

Best of look to you on this journey. I'm betting You'll do just fine.

[Kathy812 794]

You've joined the right online support group. most people here are very encouraging. The important thing is to get support online & in person. I haven't had my surgery yet, so I can't really offer much advice. But I'm sure you already know what to do, application is key.

Best of look to you on this journey. I'm betting You'll do just fine.

[coriek 15]

Best decision ever! I'm so excited to receive such support on my first night on this forum.

I've got this! I'm on it! I'm totally gonna workout to boot...

I remember this excitement, exactly one year ago today. The night before the surgery, knowing that my life was about to change. Here I am again, new hope, new realistic dreams, and a bit more experienced.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

[ashleyxx 277]

Wishing you the best of luck! I'm in the same boat as you, coming up on 3 years and gained some weight back. But today has been a good day, cut my calories and carbs down, and started exercising.

[coriek 15]

I was 248 pounds when I had my surgery. Got down to 200, now I'm at 210. I was using MyFitness Pal for awhile and when I looked back today, I saw that in Feb is when I started straying. So I really only stuck to it for about 5 months.

Like you said...Today was a good day! The first day of the rest of the good days! Good luck to you.

[Miss Mac 6,261]

Thomas Edison said "I have not failed. I have found 10,000 ways that don't work.

I like this quote, too. It reminds me not to compare myself to others:

“Never ever compare yourself with other people. They may have what you don’t have; you also have what they may not have. Over-watching what they have is over-looking what you have. Use what you have.”
― Israelmore Ayivor, Shaping the dream

And this one has gotten me over many a stumbling block, including gathering up the strength to leave an ex who was mistaking me for a punching bag, and going back to college at the age of 54. Maybe it will help you muster up the courage to get your weight loss mojo back.

"Whatever you can do, or dream you can.......begin it, for boldness has genius, power, and magic in it." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

[auntjanny 289]

Welcome back to "the other side"

[MeAndTinyTina 241]

Good luck -- I'll be thinking about you today and wishing you well!

[FairySleeve 297]

You can do this!! you''re equipped with the great tool and it's still there.

I'm just started the journey not even 3 months ago so let's do this together!

Cheers!!!

[HikeEveryMountain 112]

So proud of you for jumping back on the horse!