Well it has reared its ugly head again this year and right on time. For some reason and I don't know why I experience a deeper depressive state. I know this because I wake up at night feeling panicked and shaky.

I detest it and always hope that next year it won't happen. I used to get extra drugs this time of year to get me through it but I don't have my shrink anymore on call...lol

Sure wish I knew a way to lesson the dark feelings that engulf me through March and April......I have never figured it out and have no idea why. There is more sun now and it is getting stronger. So I should really be feeling better. But no!....This is my norm for this time of year!

I am fighting the urge to stay in the house and not go outside for anything, and to keep talking as usually I don't talk much when this happens. Possible good thing for hubby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a tendency to hide away. Keeping everything as calm and quiet as possible....Basically not living.

That is the old me. I have to press on and take myself out of my comfort zones, so I can grow and change and benefit from my new life....It is becoming more and more difficult right now though....

Anyone else suffer a darker and deeper depression this time of year? If so what do you do about it? Do you do what I always do and up my meds for a few months?

Just wondering!

Thanks!

I always get really depressed and anxious this time of year. This year has been completely unbearable. I went to my meds doctor last week and told him the struggles I have had and he said he wouldnt change my meds because they should be working and suggested light therapy. I cry everyday. Can barely get out of bed to go to work. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Money problems, messy house that I cant bring myself to clean, boring job that I dont like... etc.

I had my surgery in sept so along with taking away my comfort (food), winter set in and made things so much worse. I feel hopeless on a daily basis and I really need help too. I understand where you are coming from. feel free to message me to talk anytime. I could use it too.

I always get really depressed and anxious this time of year. This year has been completely unbearable. I went to my meds doctor last week and told him the struggles I have had and he said he wouldnt change my meds because they should be working and suggested light therapy. I cry everyday. Can barely get out of bed to go to work. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. Money problems, messy house that I cant bring myself to clean, boring job that I dont like... etc.

I had my surgery in sept so along with taking away my comfort (food), winter set in and made things so much worse. I feel hopeless on a daily basis and I really need help too. I understand where you are coming from. feel free to message me to talk anytime. I could use it too.

I am so sorry about your situation. I know where you are coming from. Usually this time of year they would give me some extra meds to help me through until may. But alas I fired my shrink...

I went to my doctor and he gave me some mild sleeping pills and it has not helped the depression but at least I am sleeping at night again...

I hate this feeling. So dark and deep...We cannot let it win though...Message me anytime you need me as well.....We can kick it into its rightful place together...k

It kinda sounds weird that your doctor didn't want to change meds. If you are crying everyday and not wanting to get out of bed then it sounds like their not working. My doc has said before that if their working he wouldn't want to change them. Maybey a second opinion would be good. Winter on the east coast sounds horrible this year. Espresso helped me some. And I take lots of Effexor and then ambien at night. Good sleep cuts down my anxiety. But I would be concerned about deep depression. Some of it is just crap we need to work out but some of it is our brain chemistry. Mine is handed down from both sides of my family. Plus my husband is bipolar with schitso effective disorder so I've been around the mental health block a lot. His psych says he does have to change meds with some people every couple of years. That a med that has worked for a long time can stop working. Anyhow I know it's hard to get to the doctor and make them make changes or try out a new doctor but suffering sucks. It's not worth it.