Friday last week I had my endoscopy. I was so nervous about it, but it wound up being no big deal. I slept through it, even though I coudln't believe I actually would. I was diagnosed with a hiatal hernia. Has anyone else had that?

I had my psych eval this morning. I had to take a test on the computer and then I talked to the counselor for an hour. It was not what I expected, in that about halfway through the evaluation I burst into tears and couldn't stop crying.

I was widowed 18 months ago when I was 36. My husband stopped talking mid-sentence at the dinner table one night and died in front of me just like that. As I talked with the psychologist about all this, a lot of feelings came up and I really didn't expect it to happen, but it did.

So he said he would approve me for the surgery, but suggested ongoing counseling and that he considers my mental and emotional state "fragile". I can't really disagree with that. But I'm glad he'll let me move forward, and I will continue to look for help with the other issues.

I got a call yesterday from the surgical coordinator. You might have heard that here on the East Coast, hellfire and brimstone are about to rain down upon us. They pre-emptively canceled my meeting with the nutritionist and exercise person. Unfortunately, they can't reschedule until March, which means I can't take the second and third classes till April and May, which means the surgery will be in June now. I was really hoping to do some other stuff in June, mainly travel with my daughter before it got too hot, and was hoping to have healed up enough to do so. Now it looks like we might go somewhere BEFORE the surgery, depending on the timing.

I'm disappointed it's been put off a month, but still determined to go through with it. I actually found seeing the psychologist very helpful.

June will be here before you know it- don't let the delay get you down!