Yesterday I had the worst day ever! Everything seemed to go wrong - right from the moment I woke up. I have been toying around at 200 pounds for a couple of days; having problems with people at work; completely overwhelmed with work and home. I was just over it! Everything!

Today is going to be better - I woke up at 199! and I thought nothing is going to make me in a bad mood today! I did the best I could at home before I left to go to work, I got to work early & I am going to be good to myself today!

I had surgery on 9/13/13 - I was 242 pounds the day of my surgery. My highest weight was 250. So, I have lost just over 50 pounds! On the day of my surgery I was very scared ... I was scared if I did have the surgery and if I didn't. I am married and have four children - I wanted to be with them for a long time and I thought if I didn't have the surgery I would just be heavier & heavier. I was scared of the money, because my husband and I are not rich - we work for everything we have (just like everyone else), but my insurance wouldn't pay for my surgery so I was cash-pay. But, I worked out payments and somehow worked it out!

I have never ever ever done anything for myself and I am so very happy I had this surgery. I wanted so bad to look pretty for my husband - to not be the fattest girl at work. My weight totally defined me. I looked to food to make me feel better and it did while I was eating it - but afterwards I felt sickened by the way that I looked. I was tired of going to the doctor, to get on that scale - to hear the speeches about how I needed to lose weight, so I didn't go. I know that I had high blood pressure and pre-diabetes because it showed in my pre-surgery blood work. My legs ached, I was off-balanced, out of breath and just overall unhealthy. I wore a size 22W in clothes and they were getting tight. I felt embarrassed for my husband and kids. My side of the mattress even caved in where I slept (how embarrassing). I cry as I write this! I felt so ashamed of myself and I am still ashamed that I let myself get that way. I tried everything to lose weight - Nutrisystem, weight watchers, slim fast, pills, hcg, cabbage Soup diets - I mean everything ... I just could not do this weight thing on my own.

So today - I am happy. I still have 49 pounds to go to get to my goal weight of 150. But I am out of the dreaded 200s. Thank you to every single one of you that has listened to me, answered my questions, liked my posts and just been an overall support for me. I am half-way there! Thanks for reading this really really really long post! I got carried away!

Yesterday I had the worst day ever! Everything seemed to go wrong - right from the moment I woke up. I have been toying around at 200 pounds for a couple of days; having problems with people at work; completely overwhelmed with work and home. I was just over it! Everything!

Today is going to be better - I woke up at 199! and I thought nothing is going to make me in a bad mood today! I did the best I could at home before I left to go to work, I got to work early & I am going to be good to myself today!

I had surgery on 9/13/13 - I was 242 pounds the day of my surgery. My highest weight was 250. So, I have lost just over 50 pounds! On the day of my surgery I was very scared ... I was scared if I did have the surgery and if I didn't. I am married and have four children - I wanted to be with them for a long time and I thought if I didn't have the surgery I would just be heavier & heavier. I was scared of the money, because my husband and I are not rich - we work for everything we have (just like everyone else), but my insurance wouldn't pay for my surgery so I was cash-pay. But, I worked out payments and somehow worked it out!

I have never ever ever done anything for myself and I am so very happy I had this surgery. I wanted so bad to look pretty for my husband - to not be the fattest girl at work. My weight totally defined me. I looked to food to make me feel better and it did while I was eating it - but afterwards I felt sickened by the way that I looked. I was tired of going to the doctor, to get on that scale - to hear the speeches about how I needed to lose weight, so I didn't go. I know that I had high blood pressure and pre-diabetes because it showed in my pre-surgery blood work. My legs ached, I was off-balanced, out of breath and just overall unhealthy. I wore a size 22W in clothes and they were getting tight. I felt embarrassed for my husband and kids. My side of the mattress even caved in where I slept (how embarrassing). I cry as I write this! I felt so ashamed of myself and I am still ashamed that I let myself get that way. I tried everything to lose weight - Nutrisystem, weight watchers, slim fast, pills, hcg, cabbage soup diets - I mean everything ... I just could not do this weight thing on my own.

So today - I am happy. I still have 49 pounds to go to get to my goal weight of 150. But I am out of the dreaded 200s. Thank you to every single one of you that has listened to me, answered my questions, liked my posts and just been an overall support for me. I am half-way there! Thanks for reading this really really really long post! I got carried away!

Jenny,

I've watched your journey and I am so proud of you! You've come along way baby! Congrats on onederland and I am positive you will make your goal in no time!!! Keep on working your band and it will take care of you.

Edited January 16, 201412 yr by NaNa

Congratulations on reaching onderland!Watch for the great Oz! Karen..aka.kll724

Your story, from beginner to (want to say end but this is only the middle, LOL) is very much like my own.

Kudos on Onderland. It is a fantastic feeling. I made it to Onderland myself, just before Christmas.

I'm looking forward to following the rest of your journey!

Congrats!!! I am right behind u I only have 17 pounds to go before onederland....

Jamilyne, thanks for sharing your painful story. I am so happy for your success and the fact that you were able to have this surgery, and I know your future will be so much sweeter every day. I can so relate to your story! Best wishes and Congratulations, job well done!

Congratulations! This is very inspiring as, like the others, I can identify with every word of your story. Here's to a healthy happy future where our weight does not define us and all the energy we have now in our lives. Best wishes for the next 50. You are doing beautifully!

Congrats to you and much continued success!

Jaimilyne.. what an accomplishment... You should be so proud and happy... I know you will be at your goal before you know it.. Best of luck...

Thank you so much everyone!!!!! I appreciate everything that you've said !!!

I read your story and begin to cry....its like my own...280 and 2 small children and a husband that would do anything for me and I cant believe where i let myself get to. But I am half way to goal as of today....70 lbs lost and 70 pounds to go. I won't be ashamed of myself like that ever again!!

Thank you for posting your story...you are an inspiration!

Your body is a Onederland! (Haha, a pun on a John Mayer song). Congrats!!

Congratulations Yamilyne so happy for you , today you story and success make me smile after a hard day at work , YES WE CAN!!!! ))

Our stories sound the same, even the mattress part! My surgery is scheduled for 1/29/14, so I am encouraged by stories like yours! Keep up the hard work!

It's not that long compared to others lol. Don't feel bad anymore. I TOTALLY relate to your story. For a minute their I thought we were twins lol. Just kidding. Congratulations and continued success. I have been where you are. You're doing great, you will get there. Keep up the good work.