Today's total count...

3213 Calories

168g Fat

Why am I still on the fence about having the surgery?? It is obvious I can't get a grip on this without some major tool to help keep me in line. A day like this shows me how little control I have over my eating. Then I'll have a week of "normal" eating (which is still not conductive to being at a healthy weight) and I think to myself that I am being too rash in doing the surgery.

I need to mentally smack myself and say "Snap out of it!", commit to the dang surgery already, stop with the denial, and start journeying forward out of this madness.

Just do it! Geeze. Why is this so hard to accept??

I did the same thing.. Vacillate between having the surgery or not. I even posted on this website that I chafed my moping and decided not to have the surgery. Then I finally stuck to the decision to have it.. U will know when it is right for u. Time will tell.

It's hard to accept because it's a big deal. Best if luck to you as you make your decision.