SO SORY TO BOTHER YALL AGAIN BUT I HAVE A COUPLE THINGS ON MY MIND....SO I FEEL LIKE RECENTLY EVER SINCE I MADE MY MIND UP FOR THIS SLEEVE PEOPLE WHOM I HAVENT SPOKEN TO FOR MONTHS ARE CALLING(THEY DONT KNOW ABOUT MY DECISION BECUASE I HAVENT TOLD THEM) OK YOU GUYS MAKE THINK THIS IS RIDICULOUS OR DRASTIC BUT IMMA SAY IT ANYHOW....GROWING UP I WAS TOLD THAT RIGHT BEFORE SOMEONE DIES THEY START TO DO THE RIGHT THINGS AND PEOPLE.BEGIN TO COMMUNICATE TO THEM MORE ETC..ETC...SO WHEN PEOPLE CONTACT ME LKKE CLOSE FRIENDS AND FAM IT KINDA PUTS THAT THOUGHT IN MY MIND AND MY IMAGINATION RUNS AWAY WITH ME...(THAT IS SOMETGING I JUST DONT TELL PEOPLE) AND ALSO I FEEL VERY INSECURE ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING....I JUST DONT KNOW IF THATS NORMAL TO BE FEELING THAT WAY...BUT I FEEL LIKE WHAT IF IT DOESNT WORK..WHAT IF I HAVE ETERNAL LIFE ISSUES AFTER THAT....GUYS THESE ARE THE THOUGHTS THAT CONSTANTLY KILL ME WHEN THEY FILL MY HEAS PLEASE TELL ME THAT SOMEONE ELAE HAS FELT THIS WAY...AND THAT IM NOT OVER REACTING AND OVER THINKING THE WHOLE THING??? THANK YOU GUYA FOR TAKING THE TIME OUT TO READ MY MESS....I REALLY LIKE THAT I HAVE THE SUPPORT FROM PEOPLE I CANT EVEN SEE YOU GUYS ARE LIKE MY SECOND FAMILY...THERES ALOT OF PEOPLE ON HERE THAT HAVE MADE THEMSELF SO AVAILABLE TO ME AND FOR THAT I AM GREATFUL... BUT I WANT YALL TO STICK WITH ME HERE THESE 2 WEEKS WILL BE ONE OF THE BIGGEST MILE STONES I EVER WILL ENCOUNTER IN LIFE.

Yea i know ill have to pee more if all im drinking is liquids but thanks ill keep u updated on my progress