Really can't believe my surgery is on the 15! The day after my boyfriends BDay omg! I'm excited, nervous, anxious, and a whole bunch of other words I don't feel like typing lol I waited 2 freaking years for this and I think I'm more nervous about being "too skinny" than the actual surgery. I've been this size for as long as I can remember and for me to loose so much weight is kinda like loosing my identity everyone know me as "big & sexy" or "the cute chunky girl" I feel like I'm finally starting to "embrace the fatness" lol to just loose it all. I keep tryna imagine myself thin and it's kinda hard for me to grasp! Me? "Thin"? idk if I'd be able to handle all the new attention I'll be getting when I get to my goal weight. One of my biggest fears is loosing my breast and my Butt lol (yea I know) most people want to get rid of the booty I WANNA KEEP IT ! Lol I just wanna shape it better that's all. I was online with my mom the other day looking at plus sized models and trying to pick sizes like I actually was going shopping or something lmao I found this girl and was just in awe ???? her figure is how I wanna be or better! Her size would fit me best I think I'm only but so tall so it might look a lil thicker on me than her. But what do u guys think? U like?

There is a deference between skinny and health. We all want skinny me to. But to be health and live to see my 11 year old boy grow up get married and have his own kids. That's what I want. And to be skinny. Sorry I'm a hypocrite LOL

PS a woman like that would ruin a good man

I know how you feel. My surgery is same day.