Sigh....sorry guys for complaining, but I am feeling pretty discouraged today. Tomorrow marks visit #4 of my 6 month supervised diet requirement. I am grateful to be over halfway done, but this whole process seems to be dragging along. I am so tired of carrying this weight around on my joints. My joints are starting to ache. Most days I don't even leave the house unless I absolutely have to (to go to work, grocery shop, necessary stuff for my kids). I am so ashamed of the way that I look. I am tired of my fat thighs rubbing together with every step that I take; tired of stuffing my fat body into these clothes.

I have used these months to do research, practice sipping Water throughout the day, not eating with meals, exercising, adhering to my Vitamin regimen, but nothing is helping to make this weight/wait more palatable. Tomorrow at my 4 month appointment, I will be turning in all of my records (5 yr weight history, letter seeking approval, and even pictures). I still resentful that I have to wait 6 long months before I can even be submitted to surgery. It just seems cruel and unfair, like kicking a person when they are already down. And then after the six months are over, there is no guarantee that it will be approved so then, there is another wait.

Some days I can deal with it better than others, but today is just not a good day for me. I just want to sit in this house or hide under a rock until I get my RNY!

I feel the same way. I understand you completely. I hate my body the way it looks having love handles all over. Thigns also rubbing together but not as much since I been exercising & walking. I totally understand you. We can get threw this. We must be strong. All insurance it's so different from one another. It's unfair you need help & it seem like such a long wait. I felt like it was a long wait till now I have 16 days left till surgery.