I am writing these things down, because I am sure there will be times early post op when I wonder "why did I do this?"

This is why:

1. Having to shop from a limited clothing selection. Eff you , size 20, you suck.

2. The feeling of my fat middle squooshing out when I sit down.

3. swolly feet

4. Feeling like the fattest person in the room

5. Being the fattest person in the room

6. Feeling invisible

7. Feeling self conscious and size conscious

8. My stomach touching the table in a restaurant booth

9. Not fitting comfortably in a movie theatre seat

10. Looking at myself in pictures

11. Feeling ugly

12. Body aches, knee aches, hip aches

13. shoes that used to fit, and now are too tight

14. Low energy

15. Not turning heads

16. Looking in the mirror naked

17. clothes that no longer fit.

18. Not being able to wear my rings

19. Being afraid to run into people I haven't seen in a while

20. Not feeling pretty

Ok, I only wrote 20. I'm sure there are more. Help me out. Why do you never want to go back?

Well my goodness! I definitely understand the no sex drive, but I'm just tired if the extra! Not trying to be super thin..just healthy with no go backs!

I can relate to most of these, I will add for myself: 1- near passing out trying to put on socks so hubby ends up doin it for me. 2- never being able to find cute clothes and shoes- hey just cause I'm fat doesn't mean I'm not a beautiful woman! 3- people automatically making excuses for their food choices around me. 4- back/hip/knee pain and kankles! 5- feeling insecure about visiting places where I'm not sure of chair strength/size 6- fear of medical emergency and ppl not being able to move me

1. Not being able to fit in cute clothes and trying to cover up my body at all times.

2. Being self-conscious and not pursuing things I deserve just because I'm too shy and afraid to.

3. Not fitting comfortably in certain seats and not breaking parts of a chair and feeling extremely embarrassed.

4. Not feeling sexy naked, especially during sex

5. Feeling like I'm the fattest person

6. Not being able to cross my legs

And of course the thing I will definitely not miss about being fat....is being FAT.

Tomorrow is my surgery day

hey just cause I'm fat doesn't mean I'm not a beautiful woman!

Yes ma'am and hallelujah! THIS!!!

1. Not being able to fit in cute clothes and trying to cover up my body at all times.

2. Being self-conscious and not pursuing things I deserve just because I'm too shy and afraid to.

3. Not fitting comfortably in certain seats and not breaking parts of a chair and feeling extremely embarrassed.

4. Not feeling sexy naked, especially during sex

5. Feeling like I'm the fattest person

6. Not being able to cross my legs

And of course the thing I will definitely not miss about being fat....is being FAT.

Tomorrow is my surgery day

WOOOHOOOOOO!! Can't wait to hear how it went!

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I will not miss having fat sex. My man and I are madly in love and he loves my body, no matter what, but feeling him grab my fat rolls is humiliating. I can't wait to have skinny sex! All you success stories out there....how's the skinny sex?

Fanfreakingtastic!!!!

Lol!! No more grabbing fat, those are my hips...I have hips!!!!whawhoo!!!

Things I will not miss:

1. Feeling like a failure because I'm so big.

2. Feeling like I can't share an opinion or information because no one wants to listen to the fat lady anyway.

3. Not being able to actually look in a mirror (because I am disgusted by what I see)

4. Not being confident enough to initiate relations with my hubby.

5. Not knowing where I stand with people, thinking that they are just being nice so they can earn brownie points for being nice to the fat girl.

6. Plain jane undergarments, non matching under garments.

7. Worrying about being the fattest in the group, and people not feeling comfortable having me in the group.

8. Hearing my older family members telling me that I can't afford to get much bigger.

9. Feeling squished sitting between my hubby and my son in the theater. (For some reason they both lean in towards me. dude! The seats are small enough!!!)

10. Never being hit on. While I'm not looking for anything, to see an appreciation in a strangers eyes is oddly up lifting.

I'm so in awe right now! You ladies have really hit a home run on everything you have said! I'm so over the yoyo diets, being depressed and everything else ya.ll just said! Minus the husband because I don't have one..

I had one diva and he helped add on the pounds to cover up his insecurities. I will not miss having to push/pull myself up to get off the toilet! I can't list all that I will miss because it comes to me in the weirdest time but I'll post them then! Lol!

Got another!!!

I will NOT miss being afraid to use a public bathroom, fearing not fitting in the stall!!!!

I don't miss all the things that have been listed on all the great lists before me.

I also don't miss that gentlemen wouldn't hold doors open for me. They seem to hold them open all the time now!

This is actually a great question to ask myself after doubting surgery at times so here I go...

1) being the fattest girl out of my group of girlfriends (hiding in pictures, not going out to bars or vacations)

2) being told that I JUST have a "really pretty face"

3) being asked when I am due or if I'm pregnant?

4) struggling to wrap my leg over to get on the motorcycle

5) hiding food anymore

6) not fitting in my gorgeous clothes and shoes that just take up space in my closet, I can't wait to wear them

7) the labor walking up and down stairs

8) being swollen

9) avoiding people who want to see me and I make every excuse not to see them because I got so big

10) most of all... I won't miss being a miserable bit©h

There's much more but it feels good to just write these few down

Sleeve scheduled 2/13 so the lists everyone is posting is a big encouragement!!

I'll add one: Riding a motorcycle makes a guy feel super cool until he (me) sees his reflection in the store window and can't see the bike for seeing himself!!

Another one ... Sitting on a new bike at a motorcycle show and a friend takes your picture. Then later noticing the people in the background are giving you the "look"!

And the last one: Having to buy a motorcycle jacket large enough to zip up around your (me again!) belly that the shoulders are so wide they hang down to your elbows!

I can't wait.......!! :-)

ok the things that I wont miss is definitely NOT LIKING WHAT I SEE IN THE MIRROR,NOT WEARING THE CLOTHES THAT I HAVE SAVED FOR 20 YEARS!!!!!!,NOT WANTING TO SEE PEOPLE THAT I HAVENT SEEN FOR A LONG TIME, NOT FEELING SEXY WHEN IM WITH MY HUSBAND, JUST NOT BEING HAPPY WITH THIS AREA OF MY LIFE!!! oh and not being able to BE COMFORTABLE IN MY OWN SKIN.. I MISS ME SO MUCH can you tell??

I wanna be like Stella, I wanna get my groove back. I'm cocky, it doesn't take a lot for me to feel like a hot little sex kitten. Hell, by 250lbs, 230lbs I'll feel like the bee's knees. It'll be here soon enough! Haha.