Today I had my pulmonary doc visit. He was very candid and told me right off the bat I would definitely get clearance for the surgery, not to worry. I kind of had the feeling I was moving through a conveyor belt. I am scheduled for the sleep apnea test in 2 wks. I have to have a chest X-ray, blood work and another breathing test the day before. The. The following week I will have the endoscopy. Sometime between now and then I need to have an upper GI series. Never had one, not even sure which doc sends me for that, but I will find out. I am also halfway through my 3 month supv weight loss...

Things are suddenly happening so fast wi all the required procedures lumped up in the same week. I am suddenly filled with a little apprehension. I have always had this feeling I may die a tragic death, and now am wondering if this will be it. Will I croak on the table...who will tell my son and more importantly, WHO is going to carry me off the operating table.

I know its crazy thinking, but I cant help it. I suddenly am starting to feel a bit of anxiety.

I think I need a hot fudge sundae.

Try keeping in mind the reasons you are having the surgery. I had a one day panic about a week before my surgery, but kept reminding myself about my looming health problems from being overweight. In the end, I once again realized there was no option and then I lost my fear.

It will all be fine. Each step brings you closer to the goal.

It does seem to speed up. I had 6 months and the first few months just kind of happened and store I knew it I was rushing to finish up my last couple appts. Than it was time to submit and than the wait began..... It took FOREVER to get through those few weeks. Now I'm 13 days pre op. time is flying once again