My biggest dilemma is that I have to take medicine in the morning. I don't want to eat until around 11 am because I like to have a late night snack of 100 calorie pack of cocoa dusted almonds. I've been putting off taking my medicine but the one I can't put off is an anti biotic.

I guess I can share this ,lol. I have to take an antibiotic before have sex or I will get a UTI.I have to take it with food.

I guess half of a Greek Yogurt would be 50 calories. I need to look up string cheese and baby bell light.

How about you? Is the 5:2 plan working with your life? I also don't like working out with my trainer on an empty stomach.

Will this not work if you have 11 hours in between instead of 12? There must be some reason you have to have 12 hours off.

I'm so sorry Florinda. So many men online are serial daters. They just date someone until the "real stuff" appears, and it's not fun for them anymore, so they just click on another profile. The whole time, they tell you what you want to hear,

 

I don't know what to do about Bill. He has some terrible character defects, but he has started therapy and really likes his counselor. He texted me once last week and asked if I would consider going to some of his sessions. He also has some wonderful qualities that I love about him. These are qualities that I can't fine here in this little hick town. Men in this town are chauvinistic pigs.

 

Sheryl, I will go and look at that thread. You should give me links more often because I am not good about searching around the board anymore. I will click on new posts, the powder room, and vets and look for something interesting to read. I hardly find things I can even post in.

We are all wired different. ..but I can't fathom being truly in love with someone I scarcely know. Maybe I don't know what love is anymore but I use it uncomfortably myself unless we are talking about my sons and other very close people. I am innately suspicious if anyone that throws around emotionally charged words like that early on. I use it to describe feeling between steven and I but it isn't accurate. What we have is an attachment and chemistry. ..lots of both of those but that isn't love to me.

What I said was there are some qualities that I love about him. I love his sense of humor, for one thing. He is one of the funniest people I have ever met. I guess if saying I love something about someone , it would be the same thing as you saying that you really like a certain quality about someone.

Insomnia problems again....grrr

Hauled home hay tonight after work -great deal on some nice hay. I didn't reserve as much as I should have..

Denise, my love comment was in reference to Jack using that word alot early on when it doesn't seem like he really followed through. I too make the distinction..like I say I love something about a person. Or I love raspberries.. And I am not saying I am right, just that is my idiosyncrasy - I distrust people who profess love too soon.

So how is Dee Kelly and Georgia and everyone else that's been pretty silent.

Sarah, are you loving your flat tummy?

Wish me sleepy thoughts

Cheryl - I agree, early I love you's should, for me, be a red flag, but you'd have to be made of some pretty strong stuff, stronger than me, to turn away from that...

My self-esteem and self-confidence are dissolving like sugar cubes these days, what is it about sexual/romantic/flirtatious interaction with me that makes men go off physical intimacy?! v_v... My grooming and hygiene are excellent, I am generous and playful, and I know we are supposed to pretend like it isn't important or that we are ignorant of it but, I also know that I am not difficult to look at, hell, I'm really pretty. So, what the eff???

Also, I just dyed my hair red, deep deep auburn with copper lowlights, and I love it, but guess what?? Precisely two people have noticed, one of whom was a very stylish and chic gay man (counts but doesn't count you know what I mean...) I mean, seriously, HOW F*U*C*KING INVISIBLE AM I???????? I went to tango Monday night, not one person said a word about it. And just in case any of you can't remember, my hair was ash blonde level 7 with nearly platinum highlights, not to mention a solid 3 inches of silvery white roots. So I went from that, to solid rich dark auburn with coppery lowlights.

one hundred and thirty five pounds gone, and I am still invisible. v_v

I am attaching two pictures, one is of me with my new hair and no makeup, the other is a painting of a French princess, one of Louis XIII, "the sun king"'s daughters. Not only do we look wierdly alike, but that's the level of grey white my hair was, lol.....

Florinda you are beautiful, intelligent and desirable. I don't know the secrets of the universe but I think that as soon as this external validation from men becomes less important, you will likely find a better man. It is completely understandable why someone full of sweet nothings drew you in...and actually I think it's okay to have fun with that but as we know "good timing men" aren't around when the going gets tough. I am sorry you have gone through such a hard time and I suspect some of your frustration is really about life and not about Jack or people not noticing your hot new hair! Once you are settled I hope you can get in a good groove of life as I honestly think that will make things easier. Bad news though. .Seattle is one of the worst places to meet men. For one thing, women out number men by a bit...but I read about this ... not a single woman s paradise!

Work has been intense and I am falling behind. I need more motivation!

Notice that every one use phone on this site so they can't see profile or signatures so newbies want people to retype their stories stats and photos. Not their fault but it really is a shame as those signature and profiles were very informative and inspiring to me as a newbie.

Blimey - Florinda, those pics - you do really look alike! And pretty? Try beautiful!

When you said about being invisible - I can relate to that... even now, if I chose to be invisible in a room full of people, I find it really easy to do so. When I was fatter, it was defo a thing that I clung to as I hated attention.

I am not sure why you don't get noticed - 'cos you would defo get noticed in one of my regular pubs looking like that!

Cheryl - I agree, early I love you's should, for me, be a red flag, but you'd have to be made of some pretty strong stuff, stronger than me, to turn away from that...

My self-esteem and self-confidence are dissolving like sugar cubes these days, what is it about sexual/romantic/flirtatious interaction with me that makes men go off physical intimacy?! v_v... My grooming and hygiene are excellent, I am generous and playful, and I know we are supposed to pretend like it isn't important or that we are ignorant of it but, I also know that I am not difficult to look at, hell, I'm really pretty.  So, what the eff??? 

 

Also, I just dyed my hair red, deep deep auburn with copper lowlights, and I love it, but guess what??  Precisely two people have noticed, one of whom was a very stylish and chic gay man (counts but doesn't count you know what I mean...)  I mean, seriously, HOW F*U*C*KING INVISIBLE AM I???????? I went to tango Monday night, not one person said a word about it.  And just in case any of you can't remember, my hair was ash blonde level 7 with nearly platinum highlights, not to mention a solid 3 inches of silvery white roots.  So I went from that, to solid rich dark auburn with coppery lowlights.

 

one hundred and thirty five pounds gone, and I am still invisible. v_v

 

I am attaching two pictures, one is of me with my new hair and no makeup, the other is a painting of a French princess, one of Louis XIII, "the sun king"'s daughters. Not only do we look wierdly alike, but that's the level of grey white my hair was, lol.....

Florinda, how old are you again?  You are SO YOUNG!!!!!!   This is the coolest video of women in art!   Made me think of it when I saw the pic!  LOL

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUDIoN-_Hxs

Well, finally got myself back on track for last two weeks.  have pulled off two weeks of good fast days and better "non fast" days. Amazing how just eating right changes your overall psyche (for me) and losing a few pounds motivates a body!

 

I've figured out for me - maintenance will ALWAYS be difficult.  With that said, I tend to be "that person" who reaches a goal easily, loses easily (usually - isn't it amazing how QUICKLY you can add back pounds and how SLOWLY you lose them????), and then I REWARD myself mentally which, in turn, causes me to add the "junk" back 'cause let's face it, I AM A CARB ADDICT!   Ha!   There!  I've said it!

 

One thing that stirs me, though, is when I feel my skirt size slipping away!  Ha!   Size 6/8 is AWESOME - 10 tolerable - above that NOOOOO!   And this will tell you just how drastic I get - I went for annual Surgeon followup end of July - THREE WEEKS LATER, I was up almost 10 pounds!  

 

Was down four pounds from last year's visit and all blood work perfect, though. 

 

Welp, I'm back "on!" So, that's my post for the day!   Best to all!  

(Yeah, I know - I should be able to do better at 4 years out but...life is hard sometimes!  Lots of stress and "junk" (right Florinda?)  So I'll just keep on keeping on!  It's all good!

Georgia, I am a carb addict too. I am doing better overall, but I got a little stressed out a few days ago and found myself eating... bread. Not a sandwich, not toast.... just bread. This is why when I live at home, I just don't keep it in the house. I think you are very successful... 4 years out, still in single digit clothing sizes...woo hoo!!!

Actually, I am very inspired by people like Julian Michaels. She says things about how perfection is not required, it is the keeping on trying, the doing your best every day that you can. I actually think that is the hardest thing - to not just "give up" because we gain 5# or 50# or whatever. All or nothing thinking is the curse of the obese and formerly obese somehow.

Bread is also my enemy!  I can walk past sweets, crisps, cakes and pastries but you put a piece of bread in front of me and I start dribbling like Maslow's dogs!

So from Monday onwards no more bread!

I'm still at the top end of my bounce, the 2lbs holiday weight has gone ( I am sure this is due to fizzy drinks - I don't touch them at home!). I am still not stressing about the scales... but I will be back on the 5:2 wagon Monday!  Whether I lose or not - I like the feeling it gives me.

Count me in Coops, back to work and back to 5:2!

I don't believe it, got up early to do my exercise just got to the end of the warm up and my back went 'pop'. It has happened before (but not for a long time) but it is a bummer. I'm back to work Monday after just having 6 weeks of for our summer break, they will think I am having a laugh when I tell them I might have to have restrictive duties for a couple of weeks. I was just trying to get healthier and fitter.

Ouch Cathy - that hurts like mad.  Have you seen a dr? Will you bother... I know mine ain't much use!

Rest up m'love! x

Cathy, my back went "slipop" 5 weeks ago and I am still suffering I went to this amazing sports massage therapist the other day and she released so much trauma from my body that the room was steaming with the heat pouring off of me. The muscles to the left of my spine but to the right of the shoulder blade are so sore that a deep breath hurts :/

ONE DAY LEFT, or as I like to think of it, 10 working hours .

Cheryl - I have not found that to be the case, regarding men in Seattle, I use OKC as my metric and I already have like 6 dates lined up so it isn't quantity I am concerned about, and it isn't securing the first date that concerns me, it is that one taste of me seems to be more than enough and they disappear in a puff of smoke v_v

I read some info on narcissists and how to recognize them and it blew my mind because so much of it was what Jack has done to me, "cultivating" me as his "source"... but, I also worry that I too may have narcissistic tendencies, because of my desire for total adoration and my willingness to use other people to get to my goals...