I did a dumb thing tonight. I decided to go get more of my nutritional supplies at the grocery store. Skim milk, tea, flavored water, Soups, Jello, pudding, yogurt. A member of my household asked me to pick up some mini-donuts for her. No problem! I have no desire for that anyway. Then, I get a text to pick up their favorite sodas. Ok.

What I didn't prepare myself for was walking through the bakery and deli and produce surrounded by chewable food everywhere. Familiar foods.... Foods that I enjoyed before... And I walked past all of them to get my Soup and water.... And the other items. Needless to say, Ethyl was pretty distressed and put out with me for taking her in there!

The ghosts of Eating Past swirled all around me in that store. I told myself if I ate anything, it would make me sick. I KNEW that! It wasn't that I yearned for any one item. It was the psychological impact of knowing I was surrounded by familiar foods that I used to find pleasurable. I'd say it would be like placing a NEWLY recovering sex addict in the middle of the Nevada Bunny Ranch with free passes.

What did I learn and what do I recommend? If you have other members in your household ABLE to do the grocery shopping, let them. DON'T go into a grocery store when you haven't eaten solid foods in a week. Just don't do it. It is an unnecessary stress. JUST WAIT until we are leveled out on a regular diet before going grocery shopping again.

Did I succumb? I'm so proud of myself. I didn't. I raced home and made some Cream of chicken soup and kicked back and enjoyed it. But, I'm not going back in a grocery store until I'm on solid foods. It is just too cruel.

I did a dumb thing tonight. I decided to go get more of my nutritional supplies at the grocery store. Skim milk' date=' tea, flavored water, soups, Jello, pudding, yogurt. A member of my household asked me to pick up some mini-donuts for her. No problem! I have no desire for that anyway. Then, I get a text to pick up their favorite sodas. Ok.

What I didn't prepare myself for was walking threw the bakery and deli and produce surrounded by chewable food everywhere. Familiar foods.... Foods that I enjoyed before... And I walked past all of them to get my soup and water.... And the other items. Needless to say, Ethyl was pretty distressed and put out with me for taking her in there!

The ghosts of Eating Past swirled all around me in that store. I told myself if I ate anything, it would make me sick. I KNEW that! It wasn't that I yearned for any one item. It was the psychological impact of knowing I was surrounded by familiar foods that I used to find pleasurable. I'd say it would be like placing a NEWLY recovering sex addict in the middle of the Nevada Bunny Ranch with free passes.

What did I learn and what do I recommend? If you have other members in your household ABLE to do the grocery shopping, let them. DON'T go into a grocery store when you haven't eaten solid foods in a week. Just don't do it. It is an unnecessary stress. JUST WAIT until we are leveled out on a regular diet before going grocery shopping again.

Did I succumb? I'm so proud of myself. I didn't. I raced home and made some Cream of chicken soup and kicked back and enjoyed it. But, I'm not going back in a grocery store until I'm on solid foods. It is just too cruel.[/quote']

I understand that feeling I went to a darn cookout a week later and my husband was on the grill with the best looking ribs I have ever seen. Well they seemed to be. It was horrible and my brother didn't make it any better when I ate my soup. He said that's it you can't eat nothing else.... I said yes you should try it lol... He then said I'm sorry but I would a sandwich with that! Which definitely sounded good. Ugh now I'm on stage 3 which is sift foods however I haven't been following my Fluid intake so I made chewable a reward for every 3 cups of fluid or 24 oz. we will see today I had tuna with fat free pepper mayo and fat free barbecue sauce I only less than three hundred calories or even 450....

Banded April 1st 2010 323lbs. Band removed 12/11/2012 around 260lbs. Sleeved April 9th 2013 263lbs------Sent from my iPad using VST

Congratulations on holding strong! Thank you for the advice. I will definitely remember that!

Who is Ethyl?

Ethyl is explained in my blog.... She is the identity of my body, who talks (or complains) to me when I eat too fast or eat the wrong thing, or wants something else to eat. Listening to my body more than I ever have... So she deserved a name.

A new friend I made on here yesterday said hers is "Susie Sleeve."

I did a dumb thing tonight. I decided to go get more of my nutritional supplies at the grocery store. Skim milk, tea, flavored water, soups, Jello, pudding, yogurt. A member of my household asked me to pick up some mini-donuts for her. No problem! I have no desire for that anyway. Then, I get a text to pick up their favorite sodas. Ok.

What I didn't prepare myself for was walking through the bakery and deli and produce surrounded by chewable food everywhere. Familiar foods.... Foods that I enjoyed before... And I walked past all of them to get my soup and water.... And the other items. Needless to say, Ethyl was pretty distressed and put out with me for taking her in there!

The ghosts of Eating Past swirled all around me in that store. I told myself if I ate anything, it would make me sick. I KNEW that! It wasn't that I yearned for any one item. It was the psychological impact of knowing I was surrounded by familiar foods that I used to find pleasurable. I'd say it would be like placing a NEWLY recovering sex addict in the middle of the Nevada Bunny Ranch with free passes.

What did I learn and what do I recommend? If you have other members in your household ABLE to do the grocery shopping, let them. DON'T go into a grocery store when you haven't eaten solid foods in a week. Just don't do it. It is an unnecessary stress. JUST WAIT until we are leveled out on a regular diet before going grocery shopping again.

Did I succumb? I'm so proud of myself. I didn't. I raced home and made some Cream of chicken soup and kicked back and enjoyed it. But, I'm not going back in a grocery store until I'm on solid foods. It is just too cruel.

The first weeks after my band surgery (I'm revising soon due to a slip) 3 1/2 yrs ago, I would go into Alberstons 2-3x a week to stock up on tomato soup, jello, popsicles, etc. Everytime I'd walk thru the door, the smell of the deli fried chicken would get me. I swore every single time I walked in that very chicken would be my first "real" meal. It wasn't.

Know your pain!

I'd say it would be like placing a NEWLY recovering sex addict in the middle of the Nevada Bunny Ranch with free passes.

This literally made me LOL

Thank you, thank you.... I'm here til Thursday. Tip your waiters.

I call my sleeve Cibyl. Many different faces lol