Scared of...

[Queen In Me 36]

I'm scared of having a leak, not waking up from surgery, not losing weight or losing weight and gaining it back...

[#Redy4chg.org 40]

I'm scheduled 1/21/13 in Mexico. I'm afraid of traveling to Mexico, not waking up, not losing enough or losing too much, complications, still not being happy with me, and changing into a different person.

[Changeme 11]

I am almost a month out and can tell you it was the best thing I ever did.

No pain, no nausea.

Nothing. Honestly. Didn't take pain medication at all, not even in the hospital.

Walk immediately and a lot! It helps significantly.

You will find foods to eat. Ricotta bake is wonderful! So much easier post-op than pre-op because you aren't hungry.

Down 23lbs in 27 days. Totally worth it

Own and acknowledge your fears, but don't let them take over your mind.

[CowgirlJane 14,260]

I am replying to this post because just over a year ago - I had all those same fears. What has actually happened is my life has been transformed beyond my wildest dreams. I am pretty, energetic, healthy, fun, active and just live a life that is so much richer then it ever was at 300+ pounds.

In some ways, I did change to a different person. People tell me I am the same except I am just happier. Well, that is true, I can also wear high heels without dying, I dress more fashionably, I take better care about my hair and makeup. I like to think that I am the person I always was, I just no longer have the obstacle to being the real me... the real me was struggling under a burden that made it hard to be everything I aspired.

One thing in my attitude that is different though - I was and still am so OVER food. I mean, it has been like a bad boyfriend, short term thrills, long term ills. I have had too many delicious meals, I am done with that. Here is the truth, a year out I can enjoy any food, no food restrictions but it just doesn't taste that great. It just isn't THAT important. It just isn't worth it. I know not everyone has the same experience, but I think letting go of loving food is an important part of this journey. Not to say that I hate food, it is just that it is like exercise, brushing teeth and drinking Water - things I do to be healthy - eating is no longer recreation. Food is food, it is energy, no more, no less. I have gone out to eat with people who don't know about the surgery and that can be a little embarrassing because i eat such tiny portions. When I see them looking at me, I am just honest in saying that I have to eat small amounts throughout the day to maintain my health and to keep from gaining weight and that I will enjoy the rest later. Most people seem to accept that.

[Jennifer575 345]

Well tomorrow is my big day, 5:30 am hospital arrival, 7:30 am surgery. I am so nervous I haven't even packed my over night bag. YIKES. But come hell or high Water I am doing this and doing this for me. I just want to be healthy, to get off the meds, to give myself the best opportunity to be around to see my grandchildren. I want to be one of the success stories, one to share words of encouragement to those that will soon sit in my exact shoes on the night before their surgery. So here we go...time to pack and try to get some sleep. (A smile comes across my face with a bit of nervous excitement!) Merry Christmas to everyone and I'll check in after surgery.

[LezzieLez 180]

Merry Christmas!! Good luck with everything - I am sure you will be fine!

[icon23 273]

Well tomorrow is my big day, 5:30 am hospital arrival, 7:30 am surgery. I am so nervous I haven't even packed my over night bag. YIKES. But come hell or high Water I am doing this and doing this for me. I just want to be healthy, to get off the meds, to give myself the best opportunity to be around to see my grandchildren. I want to be one of the success stories, one to share words of encouragement to those that will soon sit in my exact shoes on the night before their surgery. So here we go...time to pack and try to get some sleep. (A smile comes across my face with a bit of nervous excitement!) Merry Christmas to everyone and I'll check in after surgery.

Merry Christmas! Wishing you a speedy recovery and much success!

[landen24 5]

Thank you for this!! I was scared and getting second thoughts, then found this thread and feel better!

[CowgirlJane 14,260]

Well tomorrow is my big day' date=' 5:30 am hospital arrival, 7:30 am surgery. I am so nervous I haven't even packed my over night bag. YIKES. But come hell or high Water I am doing this and doing this for me. I just want to be healthy, to get off the meds, to give myself the best opportunity to be around to see my grandchildren. I want to be one of the success stories, one to share words of encouragement to those that will soon sit in my exact shoes on the night before their surgery. So here we go...time to pack and try to get some sleep. (A smile comes across my face with a bit of nervous excitement!) Merry Christmas to everyone and I'll check in after surgery.[/quote']

Best wishes for a speedy recovery!

[Jennifer575 345]

OK so I made it!!!! Spent an extra day in the hospital so today was my first full day home. No pain meds, feeling OK but the damn gas pains HURT. Gas-X is by my side always. So today I had my "what was I thinking", "I will never be the same", "I just want some food and then I will feel better" moments. I feel lost without my food, I feel empty and hallow. And I don't like it!!!! I feel super fat from being so swollen and just jiggly from not being able to use my stomach muscles and suck it in. This sucks. Did I make a huge mistake? Now I am scared for a whole set of other reasons.

[notime 340]

Judging from what I have read on here before, the "What was I thinking?" phase will be over soon unless you have major complications. The phase lasted a few hours for me.