Holy Crap, I'm Getting Hot!

[Carrie's Journey 130]

...and I don't mean the temperature!

OK' date=' this will sound like bragging, and it IS a little, but remember where I'm coming from: I had been obese my WHOLE LIFE. I first had to wear size 38 jeans in junior high school. And now I'm wearing size 34, bordering on size 33.

I was at the gym this morning -- it was arms day, biceps, forearms, trapezius, and deltoids (shoulders) -- and was working out HARD. I was looking in the mirror to check my form, and suddenly I thought -- who IS this guy? I realized that I'm looking... well... A-MAZ-ING! I mean I'm 42, so I don't look like a kid; I have laugh lines on my face, and (when I don't shave my head) a little gray around my temples. But my shoulders are broad and muscular (amazing what deltoid workouts will do, guys; wanna look broad-shouldered and thick through the chest? WORK. ON. YOUR. SHOULDERS!). My chest is just slabs of flat, hard muscle. My forearms literally RIPPLE with muscle when I move my fingers. My legs are turning into little tree trunks, and a lot of HARD work on my glutes (butt) has rescued me from the dreaded "white guy ass" -- I am getting a nice, muscular butt. I still don't like my midsection; the remaining flab and loose skin are all there, but sometimes when I move and the light is right, you can see my rectus abdominis quite clearly. Another term for rectus abdominis? SIX PACK! ME! A SIX PACK!

I wished I could have taken a picture to show you, but I'm not THAT vain; I don't bring my camera to the gym with me <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/wink.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

I have to compare and contrast this with just two years ago, when my face was lost in a SEA of chins. My legs were big, but it was all just flabby, jello-y fat. My arms were big... with fat. They JIGGLED. And my midsection... oh dear god, what a train wreck; I had to wear size 3XL shirts just to avoid too much plumber's crack! I couldn't walk 200 yards without being tired. My feet hurt all the time. Men treated me with scorn, and to women I was simply invisible.

Now, men often do submissive body language (you know, hunched a little shoulders and eyes down) or challenging, threatened (puffed up chest, swagger, frightened/"tough" glare) body language. The one thing they don't do is scorn me. And women... well, as often as not, women have a sort of "hungry" look in their eyes when they're looking at me. I've even caught women out with their husbands/boyfriends "checking me out" and then looking away, embarrassed when I smile at them.

Am I bragging? Yes, I am. But this is all so bloody new to me. I'm a hunk! I have to avoid turning into a vain douchebag (and this obviously borders on douchebaggery already), but I figured that "Gastric Sleeve Surgery Success Stories" was the place to put this bragging if anything was.

Two years ago, I was obese, depressed, hated my body, sore, sick, tired, a clear "beta male," invisible to women, and probably on a fast track to diabetes, heart disease, cancer, or some other form of slow, painful death.

Now? I'm fit -- within 2% of my "normal" body weight according to the height/weight charts. I can run several MILES without running out of steam or injuring myself. I lift weights nearly every day. I am happy, healthy, have a strong libido, a good sex life, and I *like* what I see when I look in the mirror. I would NEVER have believed it possible two years ago if you'd asked me. NEVER.

And, while I'll take credit for eating right and going to the gym/doing other physical activities regularly, the weight loss and health I owe completely, 100% to the sleeve.

THANK YOU, SLEEVE. Getting the surgery was the single best decision I've ever made. It saved my life, literally -- it's given me a whole new me, one that I never would have believed I could be.

Thank you, sleeve.[/quote']

Post a before and after!

[KatieOkieDokie 171]

Yes I agree 100% you're hot!! Be proud of yourself.. and brag all you want!

[geno5150 168]

I'm less interested in the pictures and more so in what your workout routine has been over the last two years. I get cleared to start again in a couple of weeks and wouldn't mind seeing hat you have been doing.

[Kerinilla 40]

You..must..post..pictures!

[ouroborous 519]

You..must..post..pictures!

Most are on my profile. I get a tad self conscious posting too many "look at my hotness" pictures on main threads

[shastadaisy 20]

ok - i just checked out your pictures on your profile - it is confirmed.

you are hot.

especially your fancy red drawers

[Deana 42]

GREAT JOB U LOOK AMAZING we all need to give ourselves KUDOS!!!!!

[ouroborous 519]

ok - i just checked out your pictures on your profile - it is confirmed.

you are hot.

especially your fancy red drawers

Thank you :-)

[ouroborous 519]

GREAT JOB U LOOK AMAZING we all need to give ourselves KUDOS!!!!!

Thanks! :-)

[Mrs.Hansen88 72]

You look amazing (hot!)!!!!! You have every right to brag about how you are doing.. I can't wait to be able to do the same. Keep up the good work! :-)

[TakeCareGirl 161]

Congratulations!

[Caroline G 25]

Great! You deserve it! And especially after everything you've been through, it is awesome to hear that you are happy with how you look (and feel) now. Congratulations! This is also keeping me excited and motivated for surgery.