I am so anxious to start loosing the weight and showing that I can do this, but I don't want to start until after my first weigh in with the surgeon because I am afraid that if I start now, by the time I get to the surgeon I will be at a plateau.

We are all afraid one way or another. Some of our fears are valid; some fears are not. Be kind to your self. Be good to yourself. If you can't cut back now then maybe you can start working on another facet of the journey.

I always seem to loose 30-40 pounds really fast, then I stop. COMPLETELY. Can't budge another pound. That is why I want to wait until I am "on the clock" with it.

"Fall down seven times; get up eight" that is the way I look at having the surgery. It's going to give me a powerful tool in getting and keeping the weight off, but I expect to have to get up more than once on this trip.

I worry that they will say "well she hasn't been able to lose any weight since she has been in our office so we don't want to do the surgery". That they wont care how much weight I was able to lose before going to their office.