Ya know... You guys have become such a big part of my life and I anxiously await updates on so many of you that I feel like you've become this special little family I've chosen to be a part of.

I'm bursting at the seems to share something that makes me feel so alive and really confirms in my mind just how far I've come since VSG 12/5/11.

In the year and a half prior to surgery I had no interest in sex. AT ALL. The very thought of it made me want to crawl under a table and die. There was no drive or desire for it, I felt fat, ugly- definitely not sexy!

The last month of my life since I started seeing who I will refer to as Mr. Motorcycle and I feel alive. I've known him four years, and there has always been a flirty thing between us... But when we met I was actually dating his friend- then he was in a relationship, and we have just been friends supporting each other through lifes ups and downs. In the last month though I feel beautiful, sexy, desired, and comfortable with who I am and the changes I am going through, and comfortable with him being a part of my life during this amazing journey. I swore when I started all this I was going to stay single and work exclusively on me until I was done getting where I want to be. But he just fits into my life right now.... Maybe it wont be forever or anything but right now he's the perfect fit.

So.... last night... I don't know if it's because it has been two years for me or because of him, or because of my body.. But WOW!

I feel so cheesy this morning... Why? Well, who here watched Breaking Dawn? That scene the morning after the honey moon where Bella is all in awe and flashing back while she washes her face? Yeah, that's been me all morning. I'm never gonna survive a day of co-workers teasing me.

And why am I sharing this with you guys? Because I'm lame and have no one else to share it with right now and I'm bursting! My best fiend is at work and I won't get to talk to her until like 6 tonight so- gotta share..... I'll prolly just end up deleting this, but...

Am I alone in this whole- I hated the thought of it and now it's better than ever?

I was making a joke, joke may have been lost. Bah, internet. I get the anonymity thing. I meant it more like -- lots of sexual euphamisms around motorcycles.... the way they're sat on, etc. Ba dum dum... He was so good he's now you're "motorcycle man wink wink... stopping while I'm ahead.

Oh I got the joke lol I just was clarifying so I didn't look like a total perv lol

It's pretty amazing, really! I'm 59 years old and having the best sex of my life. Thank you VSG!

And you know it's not just that, it's everything, just touching is so amazing now! Being able to press warm skin against warm skin and really be able to press and be close, awesome!

be able to press and be close, awesome!

Yes, it's amazing how much longer your arms are when you and the spouse aren't both fat We can actually touch our wrists around the other now!

I can now wrap my ankle around the back of his opposite hip =P

All of these posts are making me feel positive about my future. At this point in my life I dread sex. I hate it because of how I look and feel. My boyfriend has a rockin' buff bod and loves my body the way it is but I just feel awful when he sees me naked. I can't wait to be where you are at and feel sexy again.