Confused And Depressed -- I Don't Want To Regret This!

[DebiC 181]

Emlefe: It's been two weeks since your first post. How are things going now? Are you at the mushies yet? Please fill us in on how you are doing.

[AliveAgain 283]

Thanks for checking in, Debi!

I have been doing much better for the past 10-12 days now and am in a MUCH better place. The depression lifted going into week two, with some ups and downs around my TOM. The shakes are much easier to tolerate, and I have been introducing mushy foods for the last week. So far, that is going well - still no vomiting, pain, or nausea. I'm a little tired of the lack of variety - cottage cheese, yogurt, eggs, tofu. But I know that will happen in due time. I've had a bite here and there of my husband's cooked broccoli, some extremely tender pieces of chicken I chewed thoroughly, and some vegetable Soups. I'm walking an hour most days, and my husband says my pace is much faster than even a week ago. Can't wait to test out a few gyms in my area this week to work on other parts of the body!

The scale showed 234 this morning, so I've lost 15lbs in 21 days (plus the 8lbs in fluids I came home with from the hospital!) No complaints! Bought a bra one size down yesterday, and I'm already in my size 20 jeans, feeling like 18 could happen really soon. My husband said it was easier to wrap his arms around me, which I'd never even thought about before.

I'm going to see a psychiatrist this week to see if he recommends anything. Not sure if I'll go down that road, but I'm curious if there is something to help me through. My hormones were completely out of whack last week and I had a very painful period. I'm sure it's PCOS related and my doctor is monitoring it. I find that's when the depression gets worse in the 10 days before. So while I'm feeling good now, I really don't want to go down that road again next month!

Everyone's suggestions have been great, and I hope this sticks around long enough to help others out going through the same tough period that is the first week