I have to either go pick up another week of my liquid diet by this coming Wednesday or have my sister pick it up for me.

I'm really depressed on this liquid diet. I'm trying to stick to it around people who are eating and it's hard. On top of that, it's causing spikes and valleys in my blood sugar so I feel crappy. In addition, I've done the Optifast diet in the past and failed at it because it's so extreme.

I live/work 30 minutes from the hospital where they keep the food. My sister lives around the corner from them and works where I work. So it's easy for her to pick up my food and bring it to me. This would be the simplest option.

But, I think I need to hear the positive reinforcement of "You've lost weight on this! You're on track for surgery!" If I go pick it up, they weigh me and I will get that.

The other side of this is what if I'm NOT losing and I go down there and I haven't lost or I haven't lost enough.

I'm trying to make this surgery about me getting healthy and not about a number. I had bulimia as a teen and the focus on numbers is hard for me. I don't look at the scale when I weigh down there so there's no way I could weigh myself and know if I've lost or not. I'm at a size where it's all elastic so nothing really fits differently.

I can ask if they can weigh me before the support group that's this Wednesday. That way I will have a safe place to go talk about it if I haven't lost and it throws me into a bad place.

Any opinions? I'm trying to stay motivated for these four weeks. I feel like the surgery is so far away I can't even see it yet.

Thanks in advance.

If you have stuck to the liquid diet and haven't cheated you should have lost weight. Go and be proud.! And if you didn't lose (even though I am sure you did) be proud that you are stciking to this diet, because seriously this pre-op diet is freaking hard! Hold your head up high, you are getting healthy and you are going to feel better by getting this weight off. You are gunna wear non elastic pants, in fact you are gunna rock some skinny jeans! Just keep up the good work!

I want to add you have to do what will make you feel most comfortable, whatever that may be. Good Luck!

I haven't cheated and everyone I've seen today has told me how much thinner I look so I think it will be good news.

I think I'll be brave and go weigh.

Good for you! Good Luck!