One year through the trials of hell

[Oregondaisy 2,020]

Congratulations!

It's great that you have such a wonderful foundation that will carry you on when you get into maintenance.

For me, I have to watch every bite I put in my mouth. It's so easy to eat a bite of this and a taste of that. I seem to gain easier now at 2 1/2 years. It's easy to put a few lbs on in one day if I indulge at some social gathering. It's me and the gym too, sweating to take it back off.

I hope you stick around the board cause I am going to need your motivating spirit!

[MustangAli 9]

You are such an inspiration. I have lost 100 lbs since I started this journey. 60 since surgery. I still see the same disgusting person when I look in the mirror...I still hate myself and degrade myself and care what others think.

I hope to reach your level someday.

Keep up the good work.

[DougNichols 124]

I lost 39lbs in 6 weeks during my weight loss challenge. The second place only lost 7. When I asked if I won, Lynn started laughing since I successfully drove out several people from the challenge. I passed on the money, and did not show up to the 'awards' meeting since I already got what I wanted. Since then I signed up for their third one, and will annihilate all competition in November/December too.

I'm currently making a list of my top 5 fears. Things that absolutely scare the hell out of me. And then going out into these situations in the worst possible way until every fear is abolished, and I'm in complete control over them. I will not live in fear, in failure, in the chaos that I see most others face. November is devoted to conquering what controls me. I do not fail, nor relegate my power to a simple emotion.

I still see the same disgusting person when I look in the mirror...I still hate myself and degrade myself and care what others think

Your thoughts create your beliefs, which in turn create your reality. Control your thoughts, or live in misery as you helplessly watch them control you.

Have you dated post op?

Women are comfortable around me now, and do things they didn't before. And either really like me (a few weird stories, I mean REALLY like me) or actively avoid me dependent upon my state and their own internal perceptions of reality. I have not pursued dating again seriously, seems I have some issues to work out. I'll get to those after I finish abolishing all my fears (project November).

[Was a humpty dumpty 35]

Wow you are doing awesome!

[DougNichols 124]

I abolished my top 5 fears by going out and burying myself in situations I was scared of. During this time, I joined another 6 weeks weight loss challenge, and have dropped 34+ lbs and 18 inches. I won the challenge for a third time. Now wearing a 38 jean (from 54).

I was also introduced to a lovely lady during this process, and we started dating. We have everything in common like thoughts, beliefs, ideas about religion and other stuff. After the first date, it was intense enough that she dropped the other 4 guys she was dating, and wanted to be my girlfriend. It's been 2 weeks now, and we spend pretty much all our spare time together. I'm fairly convinced this is my soul mate. Life is good.

[100%Sleeved 148]

Great post. Keep up the good work.

[exoticheart 5]

YOU ROCK