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Kimberlina

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Kimberlina    18

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So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

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CT Fats    82

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The emotions are normal. Youre ending an era of the old you and heading for your future self. Let it all out and hit the trail hard. Congrats

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Intime    0

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We all feel this way...it is cause you are saying bye to the old you and that in its self is hard...but it will be fine..good luck..

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MeMeMEEE    206

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You can do it, the emotional roller coaster is normal! Hang in there and keep us posted!

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SIERRA    0

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So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

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iegal    460

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What you are feeling is perfectly normal. Be excited, be happy, be joyful. Tomorrow is your day!

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caycaye    1

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My surgery is on Mon. Aug. 22 and I feel the EXACT same way as you feel. I am scared, happy, excited, and yet I want to cry.....I think maybe in my case, it is because NO ONE in my family seems to really understand what I have been and AM going through...I feel so alone sometimes.....and that makes me sad! )I guess that is why I come to this site so often) Good luck to you....please keep in touch!

Cay

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LindaS    316

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Kimberlina, I so relate to your comments about going to Cedar Point and being able to ride any ride. My family tends to go there at least once a year, and I was so upset I couldn't ride the Millenium Force although I had been able to the year before. It was one of the big reasons I decided to finally go through with my surgery. It is also why my ticker is of a rollercoaster. :)

Good luck on your surgery! We can do this! Go August All Stars!

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lob1999    0

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"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

Maybe you will only lose half the weight you want to lose. Not everyone reaches their goal weight. I think it's healthy to acknowledge that's a possibility. I just wouldn't beat yourself up over that possibility.

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smkeller    3

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I don't know. I cried a lot AFTER my surgery. Go figure. It wasn't pain either.

So here I sit, finishing the last 2 hours of the last day of work before surgery. Am I freaking out??? OF COURSE! I know I'm not the first (obviously) or the last to go through this but my head is going bonkers telling me that this surgery will be a waste of my time.

"This can't possibly be end the 27 year struggle with weight. THere is no way that this surgery will get me to a normal body weight. I will only lose half of the weight that I want to (that is if I lose at all)."

These are the things revolving around in my head. I want so badly to look at this surgery as the first day of the rest of my life. The life that I have always wanted to have. The life that says that I can go to Cedar POint and ride any ride I want to with no fear that my wide butt won't fit in the seat. The life that says that I can go the mall and find something that I have been wanting to wear that is in style instead of buying whatever will fit my super sized body.

I want nothing more than to shout for joy and praise God that this day is finally almost here........................................................................................................................ So why do I want to cry???

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My surgery is on Mon. Aug. 22 and I feel the EXACT same way as you feel. I am scared, happy, excited, and yet I want to cry.....I think maybe in my case, it is because NO ONE in my family seems to really understand what I have been and AM going through...I feel so alone sometimes.....and that makes me sad! )I guess that is why I come to this site so often) Good luck to you....please keep in touch!

Cay

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SIERRA    0

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HI I AM NEW TO THIS. MY SURGERY IS AUGUST 31. I START MY liquid diet TOMORROW AND AM IN THE SAME BOAT WITH YOU. MY BEST FRIEND TOLD ME I AM TAKING THE EASY WAY OUT AND SHE HAS SEEN ALL I HAVE BEEN THROUGH AND HOW HARD I WORK;SO IT REALLY HURT MY FEELINGS. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? I AMDOING THIS FOR ME BECAUSE THIS IS MY LIFE, AND NO ONE ELSES. SO YOU GO GIRL! THIS IS A JOURNEY YOU WILL NEVER REGRET TAKING! CONGRATULATIONS TO YOUR START TOMORROW!

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Soon2BMiniMommy    92

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How are you doing, Kimberlina?? Any updates for us? Hopefully you are healing well!!

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      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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    • Alisa_S

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      On day 4 of the 2 week liquid pre-op diet. Surgery scheduled for June 11th.
      Soooo I am coming to a realization
      of something and I'm not sure what to do about it. For years the only thing I've enjoyed is eating. We rarely do anything or go anywhere and if we do it always includes food. Family comes over? Big family dinner! Go camping? Food! Take a short ride or trip? Food! Holiday? Food! Go out of town for a Dr appointment? Food! When we go to a new town we don't look for any attractions, we look for restaurants we haven't been to. Heck, I look forward to getting off work because that means it's almost supper time. Now that I'm drinking these pre-op shakes for breakfast, lunch, and supper I have nothing to look forward to.  And once I have surgery on June 11th it'll be more of the same shakes. Even after pureed stage, soft food stage, and finally regular food stage, it's going to be a drastic change for the rest of my life. I'm giving up the one thing that really brings me joy. Eating. How do you cope with that? What do you do to fill that void? Wow. Now I'm sad.
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      1. summerseeker

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        Life as a big person had limited my life to what I knew I could manage to do each day. That was eat. I hadn't anything else to look forward to. So my eating choices were the best I could dream up. I planned the cooking in managable lots in my head and filled my day with and around it.

        Now I have a whole new big, bigger, biggest, best days ever. I am out there with those skinny people doing stuff i could never have dreamt of. Food is now an after thought. It doesn't consume my day. I still enjoy the good home cooked food but I eat smaller portions. I leave food on my plate when I am full. I can no longer hear my mother's voice saying eat it all up, ther are starving children in Africa who would want that!

        I still cook for family feasts, I love cooking. I still do holidays but I have changed from the All inclusive drinking and eating everything everyday kind to Self catering accommodation. This gives me the choice of cooking or eating out as I choose. I rarely drink anymore as I usually travel alone now and I feel I need to keep aware of my surroundings.

        I don't know at what point my life expanded, was it when I lost 100 pounds? Was it when I left my walking stick at home ? Was it when I said yes to an outing instead of finding an excuse to stay home ? i look back at my last five years and wonder how loosing weight has made such a difference. Be ready to amaze yourself.

        BTW, the liquid diet sucks, one more day and you are over the worst. You can do it.

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      Three months and four days ago... I was in Costa Rica having a life changing surgery! Yesterday we had a followup visit with Dr. Esmeral via video chat and this morning my middle number changed.  I'm down 47lbs and two pants sizes. I can wear a Large tshirt for the first time in like... 14 years! Woot!! Everything is going great. I have zero regrets. I went down to the riverwalk with a friend and walked 2 miles on Monday without even getting fatigued. And no more snoring or chugging pickle juice for crazy leg cramps! I need to go to the gym more... I'm making new shirts next week so that will motivate me. LOL But I'm also just not as TIRED all the time! I have a LONG way to go...but seeing the progress on the scales and in the mirror is a huge motivator!! Thank you all for cheering me on and supporting me!!
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