Can't stop crying....

[drysdale 0]

I am really, really down today and doubting my sleeve. I am 8 days out and this has been the hardest day so far. I have been weepy on and off all day. I think part of it is that I am going back to work tomorrow and leaving the safe cocoon of my home. I think part of it is that I didn't have an easy recovery and sail through surgery and recovery like everyone said I would. But, the icing on the cake was running to the grocery store for some more skim milk. I could barely hold it together in the store. Seeing all the food that I have given up for the next 6 months almost pushed me over the edge.

I know that this was the best decision for my health....especially my arthritic knees. My head can tell me that this is best and going without food is not forever. But, I can't get past the tears of "OMG ....what have a I done to myself?"

Has anyone else has a really hard emotional day within the first couple of weeks?

And, I have read the thread on depression. I am going to go talk to someone. I just didn't think the depression would affect me.

Thanks for listening.

[Wildorchids 7]

I'm feeling you the hardest part is watching others eat this lady at pier one wouldn't give me my 10 off and I started crying. I'm 7 days out

[twoboysandagirl 109]

I am 8 days out too and I have had times when I thought what have I done (mostly while preparing food for my kids). I have not sailed through the recovery either and I am so tired but can't sleep. I feel like I am not getting better and I am going to be weak forever. My husband says he can tell I am getting better each day. I just feel like it is taking forever! I am sorry you are having such a bad day. I keep telling my self the FAT HURTS (not just physically) but SKINNY FEELS SO GOOD. Hope tomorrow is a great day for you! Let us know how your work day goes.

[MINI-Me 196]

I'm sorry to tell you that almost EVERYONE has this breakdown around 1-2 weeks out. I know it's hard & I don't know why it happens (some theorize that it's estrogen in the fat cells and others just because of the emotional/physical trauma that your body has gone through).

There is no denying that it sucks ... but the good news is that it doesn't last. You will start seeing that scale go down & that is a huge lifter from the depression. There may even be times again when you feel low about the surgery (don't even get me started on those dreaded stalls) ... but that is the best time to come out here & get a pep talk. We are with you!

[weightnomore 8]

I am really, really down today and doubting my sleeve. I am 8 days out and this has been the hardest day so far. I have been weepy on and off all day. I think part of it is that I am going back to work tomorrow and leaving the safe cocoon of my home. I think part of it is that I didn't have an easy recovery and sail through surgery and recovery like everyone said I would. But, the icing on the cake was running to the grocery store for some more skim milk. I could barely hold it together in the store. Seeing all the food that I have given up for the next 6 months almost pushed me over the edge.

I know that this was the best decision for my health....especially my arthritic knees. My head can tell me that this is best and going without food is not forever. But, I can't get past the tears of "OMG ....what have a I done to myself?"

Has anyone else has a really hard emotional day within the first couple of weeks?

And, I have read the thread on depression. I am going to go talk to someone. I just didn't think the depression would affect me.

Thanks for listening.

I am seven days post op and while I haven't had a meltdown I am feeling pretty blah, dealing with the reality of what I have done. I have very little interest in food and it kind of scares me. Is this the way I'm going to feel forever? So many things I liked before don't seem so great now and some things make me want to barf. I usually work part time and cook for my hubby every night since he has a brutal commute and is hungry when he gets home. Am I even going to want to do that anymore? I am hopeful that when I can eat "real food" things will get better. Has anyone out there had this happen--tastes gettting a little more "normal" down the road?

[Cinderella 2]

I'm hearing you, Drysdale, because I had to go back to work on Monday. BLECH BLECH BLECH!!! I hate my job even MORE now, but I have a little gleam in my eye that says "Hey girl, once you adjust to your new tummy and drop some more pounds, you can get a better job ANYWHERE." There is definitely hiring prejudice against fat people.

Well, I haven't hit that emotional low yet but I'm sure I will, and then I'll be crying on YOUR shoulder. I'm 12 days out today... getting SICK SICK SICK of the mushie phase, but you know, somehow food seems repulsive to me, so I guess I'm lucky.

As far as the emotions, I wonder if it has somethign to do with them removing the Gherlin part of your stomach... Gherlin is a kind of hormone, I think... my doc was saying something about it.

About the best I can say is.... watch a funny, ridiculous movie! I highly recommend a classic, such as SOME LIKE IT HOT. It will cheer you up in no time.

Hang in there kid, when you try on your clothes for work you'll find them loose, and feel a bunch better.

Cinderella

[drysdale 0]

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate it. All the advice and the pep talk really helped. Today is already a better day!

[LESLIEH 68]

Ohhhh I think we've all had depression for the first 2 weeks. I cried day and night then the hubby got online and found this site and said, "babe you seriously need to talk to someone." I take it that was a hint of your getting on my nerves, lol. The hardest part was Thanksgiving, everyone was eating n all I could have was 2 oz of mashed potatoes. I'm a month out and it does get better a lot better

[sleeve 4 me 910]

It gets better sweetie! I've been right where you're at I didn't have an easy recovery either AT ALL (I was not out shopping the day after surgery like some people have posted lol, or back to work 3 days after lol), I really was not mentally prepared...What you are feeling is terrible, BUT it's normal to feel the way you do. By day 14 I felt so much better, but I still had moments of up and down feelings probably through the first 6 weeks. Eventually you are going to LOVE your sleeve and be so grateful you did this.

This too shall pass ...HUGS!

[momto2boys 0]

the first three weeks were hell for me. For different reasons but I just felt like crap.But for me the 4th week I dont know what happen but all of a sudden I started feeling a whole lot better and since then there has only been a couple of nasty moments. I am three months out now and I have lost over 90 pounds and I feel great now. I eat basically what I want just not very much of it. ( of course it's healthy) but that wasn't my problem I ate healthy just didn't get full and ate and ate until I ate enough for 3 people. I hope it gets better for you and one day you are going to wake up and be like wow i can walk and I am not out of breath and my knees dont hurt. At least that is how it was for me. good luck to you I wish you the very best.