Confused :(

[Peachest 7]

I had my surgery in October 2010 and have been very successful in my weight loss and for the most part am very happy. BUT I am at a weird place with it. The goal my Doctor set for me was 150 lbs, my personal goal was to reach 140 lbs. I have surpassed those goals and am now 125 lbs. The problem is I know I need to stop. I have been told I am starting not to look good, that I am too skinny (something I have never heard in my entire life)...when I was at 130 and hearing it, I didn't mind it so much. I was trying to maintain the 130-133 range, but instead I keep losing. In my mind, I know that I probably need to have my band loosened a bit, because I literally cannot eat what I know I should be able to eat. I am literally full after 2 bites and at times just the thought of food sounds like a chore and is very unappetizing. I havent had a fill in almost 8 months and it is still as tight as it was back then. In my mind I know I need to gain a little weight back but I am terrified at the thought of the scale moving in the opposite direction. I am starting to think I might need professional help ~ psychological. I don't feel like I have an eating disorder because I still like food, but it just doesnt make me feel good. If I could gain 10 lbs and not a lb more, I THINK I would be ok... even though its scary. I honestly don't want to lose more and it scares me when it goes that way too now ~ although not as scary as the other way. Have any of you been here? What did you do? What do you think I should do? People are always trying to force food down me, but I literally cannot do it or I wont feel good. I am confused and starting to get depressed.

Don't be depressed about where you are, that is great if you fell like you need to slose more than by all means do it, because I had some Fluid removed and I gained 25 lbs, I'm trying to get back to loseing but I can't no matter what I do, I'll be glad when I get my fill back to where I use to be 125. lbs. Keep going no matter what people say you know whats right for you.

[readytogoforit 172]

Patriceaa,

so glad you talked to your Doc. I understand what you are saying, we never want to go back to that "place".

I think your story reinforces the fact that I need to keep communicating all the way through this weigh loss journey. For me, health is the primary objective. I am a grandmother, I want to enjoy the kids. I love that I am starting to look like a female again after so many years too. I am a compulsive person so I have to watch were I am going. I think that is why your story scared me, I see me .

I appreciate your honesty. Take care of you and yes I will pray.