The big day is Wednesday. I just can't believe it's this close. I don't really even think I've thought about it thoroughly up until the past day. I just can't believe I've got to this point to actually need weight loss surgery. I know that probably sounds odd. I was in the military for 7 years and was in excellent shape. I was heavy when I was a kid and struggled with it. I gained over 100 lbs during my pregnancy, and just continued to go up from there.

I feel like I'm getting ready to go into rehab. I know that I have an addiction to food. I don't necessarily eat when I'm stressed or sad, mad etc., I just love food and find happiness in it. I'm trying to get back my old mindset though, when I was so healthy. I know I can get there and I know this surgery is going to help me achieve that goal.

Sorry for the rant, I guess I'm just feeling all kinds of emotions about this.

I have my Lap band tomorrow. Have to be at hospital 5:30am Sooo nervous about surgery hoping everything goes well.

Well, Wensday is Mine!!!..Tommorow, liquid diet and 2 10oz bottles of that mag. Citrate?! 2 hrs apart..4 then 6? Anyone else have to take that much?? Kinda sacred...But, Here I go! Oh, I have a hiatal hernia to be repaired, too...anyone else have that done?..Check ya,later bander folks:)