How many of you have accepted your new size? I am really having issues with this. WHen I first saw pictures of myself taken the day before surgery I couldn't beleive my eyes because I never thought I was THAT HEAVY. Now that I have had my surgery and am down to a size 14/16 I have issues accepting that. When I go shopping I still to go the plus sized department first (I actually had a salesgirl at Lane Bryant tell me that they were a plus size store and she didn't think I would find anything that would fit me), and when I go to misses I can't even pick anything out because I think it will never fit. Or I always pick up the largest size first.

My husband tells me I am obsessed because I am always asking him to compare me to other women in public...like is my butt bigger or smaller than hers, or am I thinner or fatter than her.

I always wonder if I am going to fit in a chair or through a small opening etc.

Does this ever go away? Will I ever get used to myself? I know I am only six months out but I know I am driving my husband (and myself) crazy.

I don't want to become obsessed with my weight but....

Anyway.......thanks for your replies.

I love CJ Banks (they have a"normal" sized counter part called Christopher and Banks) clothes, but normally only when on sale.

I feel you too on the body issue. I'm a little less than half way to my goal, weighing 7lbs less than what I weighed the day I got married (more than 6 yrs ago), and still I only see limps and jiggly parts. What's funny, though, is people who have never met me don't see me as the "fat girl", even though I'm still heavy. People who havent seen me in a while are blown away. It took me finally looking at the pictures of myself taken right before surgery to make me see it. I knew I was heavy but my goodness, I never thought I looked *that* bad.

Part of me wonders why no one ever said anything. Then again, if they had said something to me, even at my highest weight, I would have cried, but still not done anything about it.

So good to know that I'm not the only one feeling this way.

I too remember feeling fat in a size 14, size 12, even though I can't wait to get back in those sizes now.

I too look in the mirror and still see the same thing I saw 58 pounds ago. I'm not sure when the difference will click, but it's definitely not yet.

I still hate the way I look in photos, and can't see a difference there either. Fat arms, fat face, etc. Sure, the clothes are getting baggier and the number on the scale is getting smaller. But my brain is still stuck where it was. boo.

Not long ago, I found a Weight Watchers food/weigh-in log from when I was about 19 -- and at my smallest weight ever as an adult. I was 163 pounds, and obviously, those 13 pounds were way too many and I still saw myself as fat then.

I hope that someday I can wrap my brain around myself as a woman who is NOT overweight. That's something I've never been, even though I've been close.

Making the changes in my diet and relationship with food hasn't been TOO rough. Making changes in my relationship with my body may well be the hardest part of this whole thing for the long haul.