Went for my third fill last Thursday. Each time before I had gotten filled to one cc, but had only 0.5cc when I returned. The rest leaked out somehow. This time they put a more viscous Fluid in the band and filled to 1.1cc. I can only eat about 1/2 cup and have to be careful at that. I've had very painful golfballs just about every day and last night PB'd for the first time. I'm happy about the good restriction and the fact that I'm losing weight again. I know I have to be much, much more careful and aware of how much I am eating and how I feel as I eat. Believe me, I don't want to feel the golf ball again!!

And I guess that someday soon I'll be glad that eating holds no fascination or even pleasure for me anymore, but is just something I have to do. But right now, I really kind of miss eating the old, mindless way.

Don't worry, I'm in therapy. I'm working on all of this. But just wanted to say that right now I'm struggling with the emotional aspect of all this.

nancy

That sounds rough. I hope things become easier for you soon.

Hi Nancy,

I had a fill on Sept 20th. I too still experience the golfball here and there. But I am here to tell you the emotional part gets easier. I struggled with it for a while, especially whenever it hurt. I automatically started the self pity mode. But let me tell you that after losing 30lbs. and being closer to my goal, it is much easier to deal with the pain. Also it's a good reminder to eat slowly and chew.

If the band wasn't there I would forget and be back to old eating habits. But with the band I have no choice but to remember and be careful. I understand the emotional part very well but there is hope and you will someday get to the point where all the pain is worth it.

Mary

Sometimes it feels good just to talk and let feelings out.

I will listen.

I just got a good fill too. I cook the meals and sit with the family then watch them eat.

Keep smiling:)

Congrats, Nancy!

Good for you on your commitment to avoid the golfball and for working on your emotional issues. It does become easier, I promise - on both counts!