losingjusme

that is awesome!!!

... i am afraid of failing. i really truly am. i know i have done well, but the past 2 weeks have sucked so bad. last week i lost less than 2 pounds, i know that the loss will slow down as i progress in my journey, but it's just been not good.

in fact, i gained 3/4 pound today. :cry i am trying to do the right thing. i am eating "OK" (yes, it could be better) and working my ass off at the gym, but i am still having heartrate problems - i cant seem to get it high enough. i top out about 140 and that is me really pusing myself. it is like my heart is in better shape than my body. which is somewhat of a good thing, but damn i wish i could get my HR up to the 150s for awhile. REALLY burn those calories. today during my training session, i burned less than 200 cals in 20 minutes. that is nothing ... i can burn 200 cals in about 12 mins on the treadmill.

i fear that my body is saying "OK, you're done, you've lost 63ish pounds and you will not lose any more"... i realize this isnt even a plateau but when you work SO hard and do not have the results on the scale it is just very discouraging.

during our training session today, Kari told me to start eating the carbs ... she is afraid my body is in 'starvation mode'. the past few days - low cals was 822, high cals was 1268. exercise cals low was 471, high was 1531 cals burned. average is about 995 a day. she told me to eat - she even said have a "small muffin" ... granted she also said lots of fruits / veggies, but she told me to have a muffin!!! i cant eat a muffin, i just mentally cannot do it. i used to have 2 bottles (2 "servings" each) and sometimes 2 muffins for breakfast, i cannot afford to go into that habit again.

everyone says that people who have WLS replace one bad behaviour (eating) with another. i am honestly starting to think that my behavior is obsessing about my weight/weighing myself (and working out, but they are tied together).

it doesnt help my mood that i had a huge "meeting" today and i dont think i was very successful. i will find out by Friday. i just want to cry right now. DH is somewhat ambivalent about it saying i did all i could and there is nothing i can do about it now ... well no shit sherlock, cant i just wish things were better? a little support here would be great thank you very much!

ok ... enough of my book. i need to go to bed so i can work out tomorrow.

for the next 2 weeks i resolve the following:

- i will not weigh myself except on weigh-in Mondays

- i will get my liquids in

- i will continue to log my foods on myfooddiary.com

- i will consume more calories by making mostly healthy choices - i refuse to deprive myself

good luck!!

keep us posted

ohhhhh, i feel your pain ... it was TOM during my pre op diet as well. i didnt do nearly as well as you have been though. i had several "last suppers" and i only lost about 6 pounds.

you are doing fabulous!!!

btw - the cinnamon dulce lattes ... OMG!!!! SOOO amazing!

i always get so emotional when i take pictures. i know i have been losing weight but to actually SEE proof is just jaw dropping...

i will post pics on losing-jusme.com later but i put a pre-surgery vs now pic up in the before & after pics section.

i cant believe it is 3am ... i guess i am just too psyched to sleep ...

since last picture session:

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• i have lost 12 pounds
  
• i have worked out 21 days - many days had 2 session in them
  
• i have attended three hour long kick boxing classes
  
• i have found a new latte at starbucks that is absolutely amazing and perfect for breakfast for me (it has 10 - 14 gms of protein based on size) Cinnamon Dolce Latte. a tall with whole milk is 260 cals. it is truly devine!!
  
• my heart is much healthier - i am actually having a difficult time getting my heart rate elevated
  
• i fit in a 1x/2x - down from a 6x
  
• i feel sooo much healthier
  

ok ... time for bed. 'night!

hi,

congrats on your loss (and your better food choices). i still make some doozies ..

i tried fitday and didnt really like it either so i went to myfooddiary.com. they do charge 9 or 10 a month, but it really helps me out. they have TONS of food in their library - even restaurants, etc...

the one negative i have found though is it gives me a red frown if i eat less than 1000 calories ... i rarely eat above 1000 cals so i get lots of red frowns ...

but anyway, i am not affiliated w/ them at all, just like their product.

good luck and keep up the awesome job!!!

sorry you are having a rough time.

please take care of yourself. you will be banded before you know it.

someone didnt work out today ...

someone ate a ton today ...

:scared: someone had dessert with dinner (not a bite, a whole piece)

EEEEEEEEEEKKKK ... yup ... someone=me..

i was just way too tired to get up early to go work out this morning. i planned on leaving work early and going after work ... not so much ... i was asked to prepare a report that is going directly to our CEO's office (i work for a mAAjor airline...) double eeeek!!! so i was at work until about 630 finishing it up. so much for working out.

sigh ... so i have a kick boxing class tomorrow morning. it is with the best teacher and should be fun. i may work out after that as well. we'll see what my weight is ... if it is above 339 7/8 i will spend a lot of time there this weekend.

i did have a sorta NSV ... i have to dress up for work Monday (big meeting) and i pulled my skirt & jacket out of the closet - the one i bought last year and it never did quite fit and hasnt been worn - well it is big ... like really big. not sure if i will be able to pull it off Monday. i hope so cause i am tired of buying new outfits and them not fitting soon after ... :scared:

oh damn, i am SO full from dinner. i cant wait to get my fill. i need it so bad. for dinner i had chicken fajitas ... all of the chicken, some queso, 2 tortillas and lots of onions ... oh and refried beans ... way too much ... dont forget the dessert!!

i will do better tomorrow.

fantabulous!!!

you are doing a wonderful job!!!

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harlito,

i think you were the first person i spoke w/ on this board, you are such an inspiration to me...

get back up and let's do this together. we can make it!!

what are you eating? even if you eat a lot of a low cal food (i am eating mahi mahi b/c it is low in cals and high in protein), you can still lose. are you moving your body? if not, take small steps and work up to more.

you can do this!!!

that is one thing i didnt do - take measurements ... of course the tape measure wouldnt be long enough for me ...

you are doing great!

soooo close ... sooo very close ... yay!!! you did really well on your pre-op!!

only 4 days? you will be waking up in recovery before you know it!

i had the same problem ... in fact i didnt even tell her until about a month or more post op...

try not to stress over it.

hope you get your band as soon as you want it..

maybe it is a good thing you get nauseated when you eat something you shouldnt?? **shrug**

that is wonderful!!!!

hi, congrats on being banded! looks like you are off to a great start!

what to eat - you should have received post op instructions from your MD - every doctor has different instructions... if you are looking for idea, check the food section of LBT - it has some great ones. if you tell me what stage you are at, maybe i can give some ideas as well.

when to eat?? when you are truly hungry (not head hunger). should be 3-6 hours between meals. i am on solids and if i get hungry i pop a few almonds in my mouth. Blue Mountain makes excellent lime n chili ones ... mmmmmmm..

those are great goals and fabulous NSVs! congrats!!

no, DD refuses to go to sleep

yes, it is 1139pm

yes, we put her to bed at 800pm - almost 4 hours

i am so extremely tired.

i cant go to sleep so i will post here ...

i went to work out 2 times today. yesterday (wednesday) i gained a pound and today i remained flat, so total is just under 63 pounds. i am trying to really kick it up a few notches.. i burned over 1400 calories today. i hope that will be enough to help me start losing again. i know its only been 2 days, but it is frustrating none the less. here i am eating well, working my ass off and i stay the same or gain ... WTF??!!?

i am going for my 3rd fill next Tuesday. i am still so very hungry :hungry:

we went for pizza last night and i had 3 or 4 pieces ... i was full but not FULL ... a typical bandster shouldnt even have been able to finish 1 piece. i didnt have this surgery to feel hungry a lot.

today was pretty good food wise. started w/ breakfast - starbucks 2% latte ... it tasted like it was made with water - - not sure why i even bother i'd rather just have the full fat one and get over it. but i wont. it is a 100 calorie difference and the 2% has 2 more grams of protein in it.

**sigh** ok i am tired, i should get up early to go work out tomorrow but i may just go tomorrow night after work - or not at all .. hell i dont know.

good night - i hope.

this is my goal for the next 2 months or so ... it doesnt look THAT bad on camera but it is just aweful. it has gotten better, but it is still just horrid!! it hangs down over my waistband ... i want it gone.

weight wise, i am dropping. i am down a tad over a pound today (from yesterday). i am down 7.25 pounds since Christmas. i am watching what i put in my mouth (LOTS of baked fish) and i truly am working my ass off. i've been to 2 turbo kick boxing classes ... they are GREAT!!!!!

i did get a heart rate monitor for myself for Christmas. it really keeps me motivated and pushes me.

i have been having a very difficult time getting my heart rate REALLY high (80-90%). that is where i burn the most calories, but after doing research, it turns out you burn more FAT in the 60 - 70% range so i have been doing some "easy" work outs in addition to my regular work outs.

for example - today i worked out on the treadmill for about 36 minutes - my heart rate (HR) in the moderate to lower part of high zone. i then rested and got my HR down to a resting rate. i hopped back on the treadmill for about 7 minutes in my fat burning zone. every little bit helps.

DH still has a container of Madeline's (cookie/cake type things) on the kitchen counter ... it is really taking all i have to not eat just one - - one has over 150 calories in it. i do not need that. so far i am in a negative calorie state by about 180. if i can keep that up i should do ok tomorrow when i weigh in.

ok ... it seems i have written a novel.

hope everyone has a great day!

i really like 2c !!!

i think a lot of us need to resolve that one!

great job

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hi,

i think you are doing great.

where's your blog?

hi Julie,

I am wondering the same things as girl in NYC.

do you need a fill? is your sweet tooth kicking in?

what can we do to help?

BREATHE!!!!

you are going to be fine. this band works as a great tool ... just remember you cant try to 'beat the band' .... if you follow a reasonable way of eating (i hate the word diet) you will do wonderfully! really!!!