another day...another $$$$$$--they just started charging NYS TAX!!

at my corporate cafeteria!! bummer!!

soup, some salad, and 2 diet sodas--over $10.00!! sheesh!

well--day 8 of the disgusting 2 wk pre=op diet--and i'm back to being GOOD. 2 shakes in the morning--adding ICE, ICE, ICE--to make it as cold and frosty as possible--and 2 at night. the sugar-free chocolate pops are good. i feel like i've had dessert after 1 of those.

for lunch--vegetable soup--(clear soup with vegetables, no peas, corn, potatoes--3 cheers for me, i RESISTED the fabulous au bon pain CORN CHOWDER they have every so often :clap2: :clap2: :clap2: )

i am starting to DREAD the thought of surgery. i'm wondering if my endocrinologist ever considered CUSHING's disease, i wonder what my cortisol level is, i'm wondering why i ever got myself into this....i'm desperately looking for OTHER ACTIVITIES to distract myself (oh yeah, i'm at work, supposed to be WORKING). i keep thinking 'what if this won't work on me', 'what if i only lose a little weight from the pre-op diet, and then a little weight from the 2-wks AFTER surgery liquid diet, and then...i just stop losing', 'what if blah blah blah'--anything you can think of--that's what i'm obsessing about... 'how does the band FEEL around your stomach?', 'can you actually FEEL it?', 'what if the dr. puts in the "wrong" kind of port?', 'do i have to PICK the kind of port?', 'how do they decide WHICH kind of port?,' 'how do they decide what size of band?', 'what causes band slippage?', 'am i going to be sliming, burping, pb'ing, reflexing and vomiting for the rest of my life because of this ELECTIVE surgery???'

i'm driving myself KRAZEEEEEEE.

any tips-- people out there who've done this????

thanks....

back to obsession land....

BREATHE!!!!

you are going to be fine. this band works as a great tool ... just remember you cant try to 'beat the band' .... if you follow a reasonable way of eating (i hate the word diet) you will do wonderfully! really!!!