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1 lb to my dr's goal

k. well. then. 1lb to my drs goal. but im still 5'2" and im still 171lbs. i feel good and look good. i had my 1 year anniversary appt at my drs. 87% success. i dont want to weigh 171lbs. i was 135 in high school. i may not be shooting for 135... but i certainly want my next goal to be:... ... .. ....... 150lbs. damn breve lattes. :clap2:

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

FLACA <SKINNY IN SPANISH>

7lbs to goal. my drs. goal. i would like to lose 30 more. we'll see. k. so i was stagnant for like almost 3 months. last week t-th i went to curves and drank 'skinny' mochas. ok, not as good, but im down 4lbs. gee, imagine, less calories and excercising, who knew? when i was little, i my family used to call me 'flaca' because... well, i was. i was all elbows and knees. an older brother saw me yesterday... flaca he called me. lol. took me back a whole lot of years. i smiled. i look in the mirror and still see a fat girl. though i seem to move funny now. im surprised when i can cross my legs. i mean really cross them. not just the ankles. lol. i stole a pair of size 12 levi jeans from a niece. they were her fat jeans, but they are becoming my too big jeans. now what? what do i do once the weight starts to just be gone. its like i wait for it to strike at me from behind or something. its gonna come back. i know its not. its just weird.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

OH I FEEL SOOOO GOOD!!!

8 months post band. 53lbs down. nsv: i have gone from a size 18 in jeans to:... get this: ta da!!!! Levis stretch SIZE 10 jeans. did you read that right? size 10. yeah, i know they are stretch, but i'll take all the slop i can. ha. in regular non stretch jeans, im a 12. thats ok. i'll take that too! of all the things i miss most is my ass. i've always had a rather pretty arse. round. bubble butt some would say. yeah, its sorta flat now. i know going to the gym will lift it some, so im not worried about it.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

feelin' good in the neighborhood!!! lol

186lbs. ok. 7 more lbs down. im stuck. ive here for about a month or so. i think its cuz of my last aggressive fill. to much pb'ing. i know i know i know. to compensate, i do soups. clam chowder. no excercise yet. must, must must increase the bust. not really. what is this mood im in? geez. 16 more lbs to goal; my dr's goal. i want to lose 30lbs. more. maybe if i went to curves i would? hmmm? the possibilities. lol. -r

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

ta daaaaaa!!!!!!!!!

OK. YESTERDAY I WEIGHED IN AT " 193 " ... BUT THERE ARE THOSE DAMN FLUCTUATING 2LBS. BUT AS ALWAYS... I TAKE THE LOWEST WEIGHT, I GO UP A COUPLE BUT I STILL COUNT MY LOWEST. HA. IM DOWN 41LBS W/ 22 MORE TO GO. WOWZEE WOWZEE WOOZEE. -R

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

NSV!!!!!

4 months banded I read about alot of bandster nsv's , and would always feel like, oh yippee for that person. 10lbs gone, 20, now im at 30lbs gone. (must update my ticker). 1) well, this morning i had one. actually, ive had more but just had to put my mind to it. this morning i was getting ready for work, red undies call for a red bra, i start rummaging through my lingerie drawer and pull out a red bra. oh yeah, i remember that one. deep plunge in front held together with a little ring. hmmm, let me try it on. i reach behind me and i feel the extender that i had brought because all of my bras hurt, they were too tight. i felt around and unhooked the extender... my bra fit. very well i might add. no extender, no pain, boobies look damn good in my pretty red deep plunge bra!!! 2) i a few weeks ago, i got in my car to go to work and damn... sans cell phone. before the band, i would just go to work, change my msg to say: hey, i forgot my phone at home, call me on my work #... well, this particular time, i got out my car, ran upstairs, got my phone, ran down and got in my car. not winded, no problems. wow. did it w/o thinking about it. those are just two and there are more. im at 204lbs. 5 more to be on OneDerland. i gained 20 some odd lbs in the last two years. where im at right now is only 6-8 lbs lighter than two years ago. nobody has really noticed anything about me. i do. its all uncharted territory now. every lb. will count. i love my band. -r

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

BANDED 4 MONTHS in 6 DAYS!!

27Lbs. down. i guess im on track for 1 to 1.5 lbs per week. i really like it. i'll take the border slow loss because if i did what i really wanted to id lose at a faster rate. i dont excercise. before it used to be "oh, my hip pain" . then it was, well, once i get down 20lbs i'll feel better and little bit lighter and i'll WANT to excersise. hmmm. logic not working. maybe cuz im not being logical... just lazy. damnit.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

BANDED ON 3/23/2006, tired of counting the days!!

ok. so the 3rd fill was a little on the aggressive side. i could only take it for one week. ha. i did lose 4lbs that week though. im pretty sure one is not supposed to pb and slime every day, every meal, look longingly at food, and so on and so forth. i had .2 removed and as of today, im 20lbs down. i feel soooo good. last week i worked out 3 times at curves. this week only one so far and today is wednesday. i may have bitten off more than i can chew. damn hip pain. i hope it goes away. i'll take the excercise easy. today we had our staff meeting, i had a latte on the way there, and had a little bit of bacon, a bite or two of potatoes, sneaked in a bite of egg (the dreaded evil, comes from the devil eggs, formerly my most favorite food pre-band), couple bites of watermelon. ok. done. today, for the first time i cant believe i actually feel HUNGER. im thinking about lunch (well, it is lunchtime), but its funny cuz i actually ate breakfast and i normally dont. :cool:

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

65 DAYS BANDED

im on my 3rd fill. a little bit on the aggressive side. 1st fill .5 2nd fill .3 3rd fill .5 so... 1.3cc in a 4cc band i have been keeping a daily log of my weight. i know, i know you are supposed to weigh in once a week or so, but for now, this is what i want to do. i notice when i have an alcohol to drink, i level out on my loss. note to self: DONT DRINK. duh and double duh. iam beginning to really notice a difference with this last fill. im really excited about it. not only that, i can now walk, sit, and stand with no hip pain. i so so so wish i was not such a lazy girl and could just get to the gym on a daily basis. geez.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

44 DAYS BANDED

had my first fill on 5/1/2006. needed it and how! after my surgery i leveled out at 9lbs down. i had my first fill a week ago and ive come down another 5lbs. i am soooo glad. its working. im trying to do all the right things and i think im succeeding. initially i did think the band was gonna be a miracle 'thing'. but ive come to realize that it really is a tool. a good one. its definatley a reminder. so far almost 14lbs down and its exciting. im at 220-221 . im still 10lbs over where i had been for a long time. 210. its gross that that is my first goal. to be 210. when i get there, the real work will begin. the next not mini but major goal will be to get under 200lbs. from there on, it will almost unchartered territory. i went shopping today. my body shape is soooo disgusting. i dont know what i did to it. rolls and lumps everywhere. i hove loved my body all my life. my size 16 body. i had a really cute shape. round booty, a waist and pretty boobs. size 18 came up on my out of nowhere. my legs are ugly. excercise has not been a part of the last 44 days since my banding, nor in the past 4-5 months. hip pain that was finally diagosed as hip bursitis is now being treated. excercise is on the horizon.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

24 DAYS BANDED

BAD BAD BAD BAD GIRL. WHATEVER HAPPENED TO TWO WEEKS OF LIQUIDS, TWO WEEKS MUSHIES....ETC? WHO KNOWS. I RECKON I MAY HAVE DONE LIKE 8 DAYS OF LIQUIDS, THEN I WENT TO SOFT FOODS FOR A VERY SHORT TIME, I DONT EVEN WANT TO COUNT THE DAYS. I HAD MY POST OP APPOINTMENT AND GOT REAMED (OK, MAYBE NOT REAMED) FOR MY LACK OF DIET RESTRICTION. IM HEALTHY. EXCEPT FOR TWO DAYS OF VERY HARSH HEARTBURN, IVE BEEN GOOD. NO PB'S, NO VOMITING, NO PAIN. I TOLERATED ALL FOODS VERY WELL. IM STILL 5-7LBS DOWN FROM PRE OP, AND I THINK I'LL PROBABLY BE A SLOW LOSER. HO HUM. NOT SURE IF IM LOOKING FORWARD TO MY FIRST FILL. I HAVE NO RESTRICTION RIGHT NOW. I DO STAY FULLER LONGER, BUT I AM ABLE TO EAT. I MEAN REALLY EAT. I TRY TO EAT LESS, DRINK MY 64OZ OF WATER, NOT DRINK RIGHT BEFORE AND AFTER EATING. IM KEEPING THOSE FEW LBS OFF AND KNOW I need MY FILL. ARG. :cry

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

9 days post op

its friday. thank God it truely is friday. monday i worked one hour, tuesday i worked 6, wednesday 5, thursday about the same. today??? im not even showered and its almost nine. should be at work right about now. oh, well. yesterday morning i got on the scale... 12lbs down. wow. i look at myself in the mirror. hm. inflated (full) belly is sorta gone. flat limp empty belly in its place. lol. now my boobs look separated from my stomach. if you know what i mean? that was yesterday morning. but a workday happened. heartburn happened. severe heartburn. i think thats what it was. and that damn referred should pain. its sharp. it hurts. it makes life so not fun. on my way home i picked up some rolaids soft chews, saw a chinese restaurant and remembered someones post and something about egg flower soup. i bought a bowl to go; got myself home, turned the heat pad on, got my cup of soup and enjoyed. then i enjoyed it again. ok, one more time. did you know a 'bowl of soup" was a quart. i slowly drank/slurped it all. now i tell myself. well, at least it was't a whole pizza. a whole hamburger. a whole... anything. it was slippery soup with some mushrooms, very soft celery, extremly soft peapods. thats what i kept telling myself. until i got on the scale this morning. 3lbs up. hmm? sodium? geez. today i will get my water down. i hate playing the 'at least' game. i have been making a soft scrambled egg for breakfast. stays with me for the whole morning. at least i did not have a sausage egg mcmuffin. at least. mind games. i talk to myself. argue with myself. try to best myself. ha. bbq tomorrow. we'll see how i do.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

5 days banded

im down 10 lbs. i was told that the first 6 weeks were all about healing and letting the band settle; and also not being able to eat. thats not all bad considering that i have absolutely no appetite. in the last week, i've had one butternut squash campbells soup (two sittings) with no problem. a day later i tried the roasted pepper soup (yuk). a day later i tried some grits. yup grits. i was craving them. i had 1/4 cup and made them really runny. cream of wheat consistency. tonight... a soft scrambled egg. heaven!!! i ate it soooo slowly. savored every bite. AND IT STAYED DOWN. yeha. inbetween all of that food, i've kept myself well hydrated. reading many of the posts, queries, replys, cries, and goals, i have gleaned lots of tips from bandsters and future bandsters. yesterday i was able to work for one hour before i went home and slept, today i put in 6 hours... tomorrow i must begin working full days. we'll see what tomorrow will brings.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

2 DAYS BANDED

I WAS BANDED ON 3/23 AT NOON AND HOME BY 4PM. MY FIRST THOUGHT WHEN I CAME TO WAS "WHAT IN THE HELL DID I DO TO MYSELF?" I WAS HURTING PRETTY GOOD, ESPECIALLY RIGHT ABOVE MY STERNUM. I THOUGHT I WOULD PROP MYSELF UP IN THE LIVING ROOM AND I TRIED IT. NO CAN DO. I SLOWLY LIMPED MYSELF TO MY BED AND IT WAS A LITTLE BETTER. MY SON WAS WONDERFUL. HE TOOK THE DAY OFF FROM WORK AND HE TOOK REALLY GOOD CARE OF ME. I WOULD SIP ON MY LIQUID PAINKILLER AND I WOULD FADE A LITTLE. ANOTHER SIP, ANOTHER LITTLE FADE. I JUST WANTED TO SLEEP SO I TOOK A FULL DOSAGE AND DID I EVER FALL ASLEEP. WOKE UP AT 11PM, GOT UP OUT OF BED, AND THERE WAS NO PAIN. I WAS SOOOO RELIEVED. THAT WAS ON THURSDAY AND TODAY IS SATURDAY. NO MORE REAL PAIN. SORE BELLY, BUT I CAN LIVE WITH THAT. I'VE ON CLEAR FLUIDS, MAINLY PROPEL WATER FROM GATORADE, THE LEMON FLAVER IS VERY YUMMY. RIGHT NOW IM HAVING SOM CRYSTAL LIGHT. IN BETWEEN THE FLAVORED WATER, I DRINK PLAIN WATER. MY BIGGEST WORRY WAS GOING BACK TO WORK AND HURTING TOO MUCH. IM THINKING I WILL BE OK.

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

 

ready, set... go already, damnit

right now i feel like crying. i just read someones journal. wow. all new struggles that i had not thought about. i have read, looked at before and afters, received info... FOR A YEAR! i will be 44 in two days, 3/1. my finances are in order, thanks to that good old standby, Mr. 2nd mortgage. i feel good about it. the first step was setting up my seminar appointment on 3/2. i see it as my birthday present. i cant do this on my own anymore. the huffing and puffing with putting on nylons, or holding my breath while putting on my tennis shoes... ok, that has gone on for a while now. but... trouble with socks? underwear? arg!! not sure excatly how much i weigh... maybe 230ish. almost 100lbs since highschool. geez. :cry

wyldvelia

wyldvelia

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