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I'll do almost anything to lower my weight down, unlike" Meat Loaf", I will do anything and I will do THAT!???

Your internal barometer has gone a little wookey and it is a MISERABLE THING! More deluberate, move sliw, right now you can't set any Land Speed Records!

Maybe a little dismotility from all the intubations. Many of your body areas have no sense of humor when they feel they have been hurt too much. Yeah, I do hope time heals all things!??

Day#21---Gee I always thought Already I was God's Gift to the ? World. Mama always said so, but She may have been a little prejudiced That Way! ???Still smiling through my tears!

I really wouldn't mind this getting older----- if my body wasn't taking it so badly!??LOL

And for me t just doesn't seem to make a difference. And it is very discouraging, maybe I am better off staying away from solids, puree down what I can, And just stop trying to swallow the rest. Am I turning into a nasty person because I just don't swallow? I would try talking to my facility but. they seem so indifferent I am not scheduled for an appointment until August. And it is almost like a Monkees song, only difference I can see--- it's Friday instead of a Pleasant Valley Monday. Yeah I suppose just stay thrilled I have cracked the 200 pound barrier, but the days are v embarrasingly BLAH and SAME OLD- Same old. When does the feeling like Dancing in the Sunlight. Start?

And if anybody is remotely interested, plain water still tastes BITTER to me- is this something I must endure the rest of my l8fe?

Hey Peach, do understand, THIS MAY BE AHEAD FOR ME!

And I made myself sugar- free puddings or tapioca with stevia, used to like rice, but it balls up in my pouch, won't move on through so I Have to puke it up. And yes I do still urp and puke, very few days without it, I do not exceed the designated amounts, still happens. Just finally able to tolerate Greek Yogurt , it and cottage have always refluxed back up every since surgery, 2 other illogical things-Peanut butter, even PB2 powder, and bananas, doesn't matter how ripe they are. Don't try hiding these in smoothies, Precious Pouch knows and MUST have her way!

In my case, I firmly believe the Omeprazole therapy, in my case it IS NOT GASTROPROTECTIVE! Told them so before surgery , did they listen? Nope, just like spitting into the wind, not a satisfying conclusion! Both my Grandfather and my late husband's Grandfather had the same motto, 2 different languages, but exactly same meaning THEM WHO DON'T LISTEN, GOT TO FEEL! The difference- they didn't listen, I was the one having to feel the pain. And , oh yes, it does hurt! Spasms and when not actively spasming , an abiding ache, internally where you cannot rub it to make it better! Soups, vary the broth , vary the tastes if you can, season it a little if your tummy tolerates. Can't find. a taste you enjoy in commercial soups, construct and blend your own. Had 3 months of TPN myself, November 2018 through February 2019. Never been able to turn my back on Protein shakes, find a taste you like, I do Strawberry Ensure High Protein, the one with only 160 calories. Go back to plain broths if necessary, found after 9 months of Monkey- doodling I am beginning to loathe chick broths, so I do need or Wal-Mart Vegetable , not that expensive. I enrich all things not protein high with Genepro powder, not necessarily the best but I got a very good deal on it, had a coupon for it and Body Fortress both. And I'm almost always around here, 9 and 1/2months, lost 120+ pounds since surgery, story still being told, not sure what next chapters are going to be like, but I hold out optimism!

Sounds like you're getting enough in, your body is having trouble digesting and assimilating it. There Must be surely a way to attack and solve this problem. If one kind of protein is not working maybe they can give you other options?

Sounds good, doesn't it?

TODAY IS YOUR DAY to START fresh to EAT right to start TRAINING hard to LIVE heathy to BREATHE deeply to BE proud to START LIVING life

Funny when I hit to play that through Bariatric Pal I get audio but never video, like going back to radio in a TV/internet ?world!

In the Nursing Home set THAT has its own title TOILETING IN ADVANCE OF NEED, hey it works, Baby, it works and that's what we all desire, right?

And a Big Thumb-up?for HIM, he is obviously the" Best of Breed" in the In Law Family. My late husband's family their pet phrase was " _____is so pretty in the face" like the rest of their body was a big black trash bag and not to be thought of.. Always bummed me out, I was close to 200 when I married into that family, got to a high of 365+ but after 9 months I'm back down below 200, they cannot see ME now because I outlived THEM ALL!✌?

Some people just live a charmed life while others struggle and try their best to follow all the rules set down. But as the snake said after biting and injecting venom-- THAT'S LIFE IN THR JUNGLE, BABY!

Oh no- please say it isn't so! It v had seemed like everything was falling into place for you, and now put off to July?It just is NOT RIGHT!

And I guess I forgive me most of all. Today I hurt internally, gastritis? It's like an internal toothache in my pouch area, now I was an RNY so it should not be GERD. I had an Endoscopy the 12th, no redness/swelling/malformation was noted in the pouch. Do I re-call my bariatric clinic at O.S.U., my gastroenterologist here( Dr Upchurch) or my Primary (Dr Carroll) at 9 and half months post-surgery who has juristriction? So I forgive myself for trying so hard to always take my meds, follow the rules laid down, not be any trouble to anyone, but I fear it for no good benefit. Did I sell my soul for weight loss? It's Almost like having to choose between death from Obesity or something else? Tonight I feel like the Adult version of "Failure to Thrive" and not even the bland things I think of seem to help with the sore sensation. And at this point I feel lower than a snake or earthworm navel. And I am abundantly sorry now for it all.

Day#19 Forgive someone!Hmmn this might take a minute or two. I NOW FORGIVE People who told me I would be unsuccessful at weigh loss I am losing! People who thought I lacked motivation for the WLS at thhisIii point in my journey. People who were certain I would die on the surgical table. That I would go from despair, to sorrow. May your trials. always be minute oh that I no long fev8

And congrats from me also! Only another Weight loser knows how hard it is to do that!????

Could it be a inner weakness because you're just recovering from major surgery. Even if you feel pretty good it still rocks your world to its foundation. So a reaction could be altogether possible.

If you find an answer , please post it. You have a 9 month RNY cousin in Ohio, even take a bottle of water to the bedroom. Have to pry my tongue off the roof of my mouth to take AM pills.???

Don't you wish someone could a lapband around that dude's neck and inflate it with Saline? I can't believe there is not a lawyer all the Provinces that would not do Contingency, surely someone in Ottawa,Montreal or Toronto itself! I know Canadians tend to be calmer temperment than your Red-Headed American cousins like me, but I believe There Must Be a comparable to Alan Dershowitz north of the Border! Bonnie Chance!

And a fair amount of Midwestern Mama's did too. Along with not demanding a drink when visiting relatives and friends, it's tacky and pushy! Thanks Fluffy Chix for bringing that to mind!