Frustr8

This morning I feel pretty good, temporarily willing to forgive Precious Pouch her manifest sins. Have a big beaker of Body Fortress Strawberry NutraBullet blended with ice and a healthy dose of Miralax. Things MAY BE FALLING into place in my world?! And Friday last, the 14th June I entered Onederland, even if I bounce back to 201 before a #2 I WILL STILL ?ME for I now know things are still possible for a member of the OVER THE HILL GANG like me! Oh am I going to surprise my PCP, he of the REASON SURGEON #1 DENIED YOU WAS BECAUSE YOU MIGHT DIE ON THE SURGICAL TABLE! Hey Doctor Ding-a-Ling, if you're really doing your job correctly, that SHOULD NOT HAPPEN and besides Who gave YOU permission to rain on My Parade?⛅☁☔☁

If you listen really really close, you can hear your Inner Body Voice. It is saying " NOW REBOOTING" Yeah it is weird how we can lose in fits and spurts, isn't it??

Yes it should get better, remember when you get to solids-are you there yet? Take things slow and chew chew chew until you think you can't stand it anymore, count to 30 and give it 5 more chimps. And if That still doesn't work, check out whether you have a stricture, ulcerations or something else that might be causing it? Even intolerance to milk or soy proteins could cause the errpie- durpies! ?And stay strong, darling, time cures many many things!

Getting Old sucks! Now. I have to find a pair of reading glasses to even read the Weight Loss Funnies! As Eeyore says " Oh Me, Oh My"!

And I now have lost the same in 9 months, am I losing this too soon since you are 2 months further past surgery? See I worry I am doing something wrong. Perhaps too many years of being told I was inept, Inc A-1 ble of doing anything right. My natural self- confidence got eroded away and I find it difficult to regain any self-worth. And although I have no real reason , inwardly,i am still ashamed of myself. I have got to convince ME that ME is still an Okay Person!

Oh what a miserable sensation, I have had that with foods I know have been moisturized enough by sal8's and chewing. Makes you wonder if this is something structural, whether you are tending up your throat yourself or whether?you are just expecting too much that your foodstuffs slip into your still- New pouch?

And now I have lost myself into Onderland, 199.4. Friday. late. And to me I LOOK stranger and stranger. This is the weight Dr Needleman especially and Valerie the Nurse-Practioner expected me to reduce to. Since they weirdly did not schedule me a clinic visit until August 14th , who KNOWS what size I may be then. Even I have nary a clue.???

THE ONLY WAY ANYBODY CAN DRIVE YOU CRAZY IS IF YOU GIVE THEM THE KEYS TO YOUR LIFE.

If your past tries to call, don't answer. It has nothing new to say.

Try Ensure Max Protein also, Dousnt have that fakey flaky evaporated milk taste to them. And their values are good with my surgeon and Dietician and all their advicem

Yeah that's me , my skin is on Relaxed Fit, just like a balloon somebody let the air out of but nothing's ever going to refill them, they will just have to diminish to the finish ! I am empty, yeah, but happier than I ever was obese. And now I weigh about the same I did at 20 or 21, oh the body has been through a lot to get there! But it's a good body, a strong body, one that didn't fail me now. and won't in the future. Maybe I will keep it after all. Now step. up the exercise I can do, see if that helps. strengthen the thighs and additon and not only

Anybody else like Hot and Sour soup? Egg Drop is pretty good but Hot and Sour has my vote!

They kept me in my room, on 02 and on Leg Pumpers. I would much rather walked , met other recouperees and not felt like I was under punishment, for my age or something worse! If I had not had my son staying with me, I would have died of loneliness. They just came in once a shift, did my vitals and then left, hardly spoke to me, since I had only got to protein shakes before dismissal, I didn't even see Dietary!

Can I hear an Amen for Strawberry- Rhubarb, Raisin or Sho-Fly'Pie?

And my county's name is K*N*O*X, blasted Smartphone changes spellings, meanings and my very intention at Will. Maybe the Chinese that Donald J is mad at, they have planted an evil bug in my LG, revenge Pure revenge!

And I still have the now 11 boxes of 3-4-5x and above sitting in one end of my kitchen . it is big enough I use a futon couch as a seat along the wall for my dining table. Better not have company, they're sitting on the futon. Now to seduce someone into taking me and them to Goodwill, nobody comes and picks things up for charitable centers! Frustrating for me because I'm sure there are Chubbettes like I formerly was here in On i x County that could use them, we have an ungodly Obesity rate, clear down to Toddlers and .and also preschoolers. Wish I could climb a pulpit and tell them all what Bariatrics meant to ME. But I once would not have stopped and listened, just wanted to get into IGA, Krogers or Wal-Mart, buy my stuff and get the _____ out of Dodge. I was too ashamed of my body, Me and how I THOUGHT I looked. I was emotionally pretty low and nearly without hope. Any of you relate? Yep Thought So! But time has given US progress, just wish in my ❤ all the others could find it too!

It does it DOES! Update: I was not afflicted at surgery, just had another endoscopy, a different doctor. He did the traditional then went down farther into the ileum, almost to level of a high colonoscopy. Had to have pumped gas in to be better ascertain. An gastroenterologist instead of the General/Bariatric surgeons I had been having. An hour- abd- half after I got home the pain set in, under both shoulders and across my chestn and I toured with the idea that I was DYING! Couldn't sleep, finally sat up , figured if I died, at least my son wouldn't find me in bed. And the Emergency Squad, the way my house/apartment is set up with no doorways in a straight linr, they would not be able to get the gurney in. I have lost over a 120 pounds since surgery , much thinner but still an Ample Sample of WomanFlesh. The living room you would have to make only one sharp turn through the dining room, so feasable if necessary. Finally somebody mentioned GAs , I took my walker because I could not stand up straight enough for my cane and started walking. Still got evaluated at the ER because I wanted to make certain I didn't have any ❤damage, so sue me, I AM 73, you surely don't suspect anything else! And THAT is a whole nother story, a quickly EKG, blood draw and left me in the ER lobby for 5 hours in a Wheelchair. If I had been pregnant I could have delivered and enrolled the baby in Head Start while I was there! And way back before surgery I was a soda pop drinker, even a few times beer or ale, NEVER THIS MUCH GAS AND NEVER THIS MUCH PAIN! Delivering Tomkitten at 9 1/2 pounds and a natural vaginal birth, a summer picnic in comparison! Going to tell Dr Ipchurch, the GI, if he is harbour ring any delusions of a follow-up colonoscopy aim staying awake to make sure he doesn't get too Pump- Happy! So Brothers and Sisters if I teased and tormented you all about being Gas-Wusses I'm Sorry, on my Am I. So Sorry, IT IS VERY REAL!???

Nice Looking, and it works well too? Maybe I need to fix up another BP store order!

Ooh how I envy you that! That is almost like a Cleopatra Couch, I need me one of them! Bring me a grape, gently peeled! And maybe some of that lucious Greek Yogurt you're holding!

And for me also! I do enough emesis already,don't need THAT cropping up too!

May be still swollen in there, once the swelling goes down you should feel better!!!!!❤??

Wowed wow wow clsumrall, you have become some cute ? chick. Of course I KNEW you were cute all along but now the world ?can see too! Hashtag# rwroor rwroow!Baby!

I finally used Keto Diet and also, that my allergies had flared up. Anyone who has known me very l9ng would know I have fought quite a battle with them in the past. One semi- friend told me if I had completed my series of allergy shots, I wouldn't have any problems! The fact that when I was terminated from my job and lost that insurance, I had no money to continue, did not enter into her mind. Perhaps she thought my pretty face would be enough payment. So to her I let my allergist take the blame instead of my bariatric surgeon. Oh if she had been a nicer type I MIGHT have told her the truth. There are people I have been totally honest with but MY LIFE-MY BUSINESS - if you are not paying for it, you are not required to KNOW ANYTHING! As Edith Anne on Laugh- in and Manny Yocum from Little Abner have said" I HAS SPOKEN!"

And now you are no longer Rolling but on your own 2 feet.Yes Celebrate Yourself- You are a miracle every step of the way. And if you want to put your walker behind you, I believe you have the strength of character to do it! Blessings be upon You and all you love!❤?❤

Amen frou frou- and look at this, after years of ridicule , being told we all did this to ourselves, accusations of gluttony and WORSE it truly IS HORMONAL! Ha Ha World? some vindication for me and my sisters out there!