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Tha,ks Debra, we have a lot of sisters in the outside world. And my fur babies do brighten my daily life!

And it does work, I used to be a real Sweet-Toother, made great cakes , cookies and pies, had to taste-test each to make sure they were fit for human consumption, after all. Now I have NO DESIRE, in truth the very thought repulses ME. Who would have thought that? Not me if you had asked me a year ago. And now I am 9 months past and down 120 pounds, getting close to leaving Plus Sizes forever and I started out a BIG GIRL! But Big MAMA has left the building and a REBORN CUTIE-PIE has arrived, and I have found "MYSELF" under my Fat Shell and now the World?can see it too!

Congratulations on making it to Surgery Eve! I remember I too was so excited I could hardly eat anything before going NPO. Speaking of NPO, I will be joining you later this evening, I have an Endoscopy? scheduled tomorrow MORNING, this is either my 12th or 13th lifetime, and don't laugh, but before each one I have a few chilly toes if not a whole cold feet. I have had poor and slow healing from my RNY, a stricture showed up only a few weeks in. Have had gastritis, a structured stoma and ulcerations in my jejunem, the portion of my small intestine the pouch now connects with. Oh I am a rarity, there are only a few others on Bariatric Pal and mine has been the longest duration, it has been 9 months since my surgery, usually only takes a short while to be repaired, but ME I just got to be SPECIAL! So I am hoping there will be a noticable improvement, but I am not so certain. Still having my ulceration pains. But I promise, since my procedure will be mid- morning to? pray for you that all will go well. It Will distract me from brooding about myself and my troubles.???

I doubt it, but then I always thought I could control my Weight without surgery and we all know how well that worked. So I can be wrong at times.LOL?

I think you are going to decide to tell your appetite to calm down, because I'm proud and I'm sure you're even prouder of your weight losses. But it is a dirty rotten trick that your appetite is returning. I tell myself" Nothing has felt as good as thinner looks" but it is Not Easy, is it?

Sometimes do you feel like you can't catch a break? Yesterday I noticed I was low on my Calcium Citrate, you know we need that because you can't digest Calcium Carbonate(Tums and Caltrate) with minimal or no gastric acid. Rather expensive to merely pass the undigested out with your stool. So I bought a replacement yesterday afternoon, today in my mail I got a $4 off coupon for Citracal. Oh I'll be fine as soon,as I. finish my tantrum and jumping up and down! Grrr!

Reading some of the tasty things you all have eaten makes me feel like I am in the midst of a Food Desert in Central Ohio. We dont seem to have any of those Good Things!

Have you made any Cloud Bread? Know others on Keto have made it and several videos on You-Tube give the directions.?

Or even go to warmer teas like green, decaff and herbal. Each of us is wired differently so there is no " One Size Fits All" in the pursuit of Weight Loss.?

And I pray ?you have a smooth sleek period of healing! And you continue on with your weight loss until you reach goal!?

Be careful how loudly you say that, I went from a DD to a B, at least that's what they are when I roll them back up into a bra. Really need a seat belt retractor, like many others I have now the tube Sox with tennis balls syndrome. Wish I could have saved some of my Rump Fat for this purpose!

And surely a time when MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU is quite appropriate! LOL

I think our bari'pal from the ABC islands went also to Columbia, and had good things to say about there!

Or I could send you a tape of me reciting my Weight Loss Trials and Tribulations. Most people find it puts them right to sleep, even the ones who weren't planning a Nap! ???

May your surgeon's hands be steady, may you remain calm and at peace and may you awaken to a brand-new life and future!

Now is the time to make a decision! Are you controlling your appetite or is your appetite controlling you? Your continued weight loss is hoping for the Right Decision

Well I will have my Good Cry for Day#11. Tomorrow another Endoscopy, maybe THIS ONE will show healing? Drawing or Painting? I paint with Words, I am a Poet after All. If I come up with something appropriate I'll be back. And even if I don't get something formulated tomorrow I will exhibit my Day#12 ? Smile for tomorrow will be a Beautiful Fresh Day for Me!

Well yesterday I took a can of beef- I liken to the cold- packed beef of my childhood. Since it is processed with only sea salt I added a salt-free beef broth and heated it in my crock pot. Now after a period of time it is so tender I can chew it down with my dentures to fine enough a pulp that my tempermental RNY pouch will accept it. Don't ever believe dentures are equivalent to natural teeth,like many other repkacements, especially joints they have only a 85% efficiency rating. And FYI tomorrow morning. I undergo my 12th or 13th Endoscopy to determine why my pouch is still giving me difficulties after an nine- month duration. Until this is rectified I am still on thin puree, soup, broth, and protein shake as these are the things which do not cause emesis, my Bariatric Center calls this a Modified Level 2 Diet Plan, on which I have lost 120 pounds since Surgery Day(5th September 2018). So wish my endiscopist and I Good Luck and maybe this. "retardation of diet "will be done!

Maybe Bariatric Surgery is a degreaser? Seems to have demolished your Bubble Butt, and. you're lucky you didn't lose your Upper Story, because I did- now I have the tube sox with the 2 tennis balls. Any more and I will have to install Seat Belt Retractors so I can roll them back up and replace them in my bra. Maybe I can find a lying bra, one that makes me look "perky" not recently demolished!?

You are going to make it there! And when you do, this stinky stall will barely be a memory!?

And how are your preparations going @Lisamarie517? Do you think you are going to be all ready. for August 2019?

YOUR pain may be TODAY A JOYOUS FUTURE STARTS TOMORROW! Congratulations and a quick recovery for YOU!

In powders I like the flavor of Body Fortress Strawberry. In ready made Ensure High Protein or Max in Strawberry, I recommend them but everybody's taste buds are different. Somebody quoted a brand and flavor I found absolutely YUCKY.Shame I couldn't post them my overflow and rejects!

Well it shouldn't be too difficult, there many more over 50s than there used to be. I guess we all realized it was time, we wanted surgery before everything fell apart. And to all the people who say "Why now?" or "Couldn't you have found a better age or time?" Well now is a perfect time for me, I have the commitment, I have the time, I do know what I am doing. In my case, I realized I feared surgery a lot less than remaining obese, in pain and no hope for the future. Now things have fallen in place like a Big JigSaw puzzle, there are pieces still to put in, but I expect it to be pretty enough it should be framed. So watch the jet contrail, I'm flying high, straight and true and my destination is just ahead. My personal motto today; Making the Rest of My Life the Best of My Life! Join Me if You Can!

And what Do You Plan Now?