FluffyChix

Hahahaha! Let's! We'll be fed and home by 5pm! bahahahaaha!

Dayum. Did you dump? Ok, I think I know the answer to this...but your meals seem "normal sized". Does it take you a while to eat them? Or do you eat them all at one sitting? Just wondering cuz you know, mine are on the larger end of bariatric size close to normal size. I could eat normal if I let myself. And I can do it all at one sitting. So I guess I'm just looking for affirmation through comfort in numbers lol, for how much volume I can eat at a sitting! TIA!

Remember your why. If your why isn't strong enough to you, then really look at motivation. If it is, then you must understand this is YOUR journey, no one else's. They don't have your education about the journey, nor do they share your motivation for health. You must do you, even at the cost of relationships. I was very choosy about whom I shared my journey. I was choosy about how much I shared. There are whole groups of people who only know I've lost significant weight. Some only know me as thin Fluffy. Your life will change. You WILL change. I'm happier now than I've been in years. Although I still struggle with BD and self-acceptance, I have more self esteem than I have had in my life. I can do so much more. So far, my WHY, is intact and doing well. I've not lost it one jot.

Tuesday Menu Nov. 5, Maintenance, 5'4" F, 20.5mo PO RNY / 130.4lbs (wooohooo weight stayed the same even with eating more--this is huge for me!) Had another hungry hungry heifer day yesterday, so I ate. I misbehaved at breakfast. I hate throwing out food (in my defense), and was starving, and found a leftover bit from this weekend shenanigans and ended up wasting 493 cals on breakfast. Crap!!! But got back on track the very next meal and was good from there on out. Today I feel no desire to be bad. Yay. And the scale stayed the same-ish. B-4 protein lattes (4oz PP + decaf) 2 garlic parm chicken wings + hot sauce + baby carrot + 4 cheese curds fried L-green soup with chicken and chicken sausage (had 2 meals from this amount) D-grilled salmon + broccoli in garlic + grape tomatoes BS-Belgioso fontina + 8sl turkey pepperoni (BH) + 10g almonds

((hugs))!!! Where would I be without you? Asking Mr. F. if he'd like me to get this!

You're well above average. Congrats, you're doing great!!

You lost most of it through expiration. Just nerdin' out for a minute. Congrats on your ride. Boo on the potty stop. You're doing great!

Here's mine. I think cuz of the drug I'm on for cancer, I have to figure I'm sedentary rather than light activity. That is about right with my average. I'm maintaining between 1100 and 1200 average.

writhing pain is ALWAYS an ER emergency trip.

Ok, Monday was a hungry hungry heifer day! Dang did I eat me some mini meals!!! Monday Menu Nov. 4, Maintenance, 5'4" F, 20.5mo PO RNY / 130.2lbs (wooohooo weight stayed the same even with eating more!) B-4oz Premier Prot + decaff coffees L-1/2 grilled chicken salad (tomatoes, romaine, rbp, ro, cabbage, yellow cheese, avocado, chicken, blue cheese dressing) D-1/2 grilled shrimp salad (tomatoes, romaine, rbp, ro, cabbage, avocado, shrimp, 3 zeroes Italian vinaigrette) + 1oz prime rib from Mr. F's plate BS-1 Belgioso fontina cheese snack (like Baby Bel), 9g raw almonds, 8 slices turkey pepperoni Here's how the day shook out. Everything beyond the PP is an estimate of size/weight. I tried to be overly generous with logging my "foods" in order to try to get closer to real consumed cals/macros. 885 Cals; 84g Protein; 51g Fat; 24g Carbs; 6g Fiber; 18g Net Carbs ***Footnote: I do calorie averaging. It's essentially something like a 5:2 plan where 5 days per week you eat normally and 2 days per week you eat 500cals. But my plan works the other way. I do 5 days trying to average between 850-900 cals-ish (give or take) + 2 days of eating what I want (about 1200-1500 cals) and more carbs, etc. If I want a little alcohol in there, that's fine. Then back to basics M-F. So far it's working for maintenance for me.

Ok, I hear ya. That regain fear is so real!!! ((hugs)) Let me point out: Exhibit A: Shark Week Exhibit B: Smoked herring, turkey jerky, salted pumpkin seeds, smoked oysters, seafood sauce are all salty. Fluid hon. Drink lots o water and more raw veggies when muchies hit, less salty snacks. Congrats on Day 5!!!! Don't go back to the ground floor. You're 1/2 way to the top hon!!!! You got this. Deep breathe! Run. Run Fast! In the outdoors! Barefoot! hehe

Wooohoooo! Look at you go girl!!! Great day!! Great change!

Yes. That's where the biggest equipment went and where they enter into your gut area. Mine was more sore than other places. But hard to tell if you are having unusually bad pain or if it's normal levels. If it continues and worries you, that's a phone call to your doc. They'll tell you if they need to see you. ((hugs))

Yay!!! So exciting, right?!! Welcome home!

Love your outfit and your figure!! You have such cute curves and are so well proportioned!! I can see you shrinking every day! Yes, I think the compulsion to hide is definitely still with me from my OB days. I'm not sure if I will ever be able to fully ditch the issue or the BD. It does get worse after the 40lbs hon. But you also start feeling so amazing! That at least in the daytime with clothes on, you feel like all that a bucket of fried! LOL. So losing the last 40lbs is worth the skin/wrinkle attrition clothed. LOL. I'm still trying to figure out if it was worth it nekkid. So far Mr. Grumpy Pants thinks maybe no. IYKWIM? Ha!

HAHAHAHAAHA! IKR? Pretty much MASSIVE amounts of alcohol would need to be involved and then I'd pass out before the deed was done! LOL But I know we will figure it all out! TY for listening and helping!!

LOL, but your cardio does!!! hehe

He said that with the extensive recon they had to do, that the chances of having another set of contractures is >35%. And that it increases the likelihood that it will make my lymphedema worse. He just wants me to be at the point of not being able to wait it out any longer. And he said, at least we know what we're dealing with here instead of inviting the cat in the hat into the room at this point when I'm doing so well, looking so great, and have fabulous boobs. So he's hoping maybe that the nerps would make me feel better about myself self-esteem wise from a nekkidy standpoint. I'm not lying...there is no sex in town these days. The excess skin is crazy bad. KWIM? And I just don't feel like havin sex and being nekkidy with it. I know...Counselor time...LOL. So I think he's trying to think creatively. He said if we go back in, my best bet is to do the DIEP flap procedure which will suck, cuz part of the pain issue is I had a bilateral lat flap procedure so it was almost 360* around the chest. Then to have the diep, they'll likely tear down all of the lat flap and cadaver recon and pull from my belly? He said at best, I would be a size A (wouldn't mind that), but he also said that they won't look gorgeous, there will be more scars, and it's about an 11 hour operation due to the prior recon work. So no. It's a lot of risk... I think he's hoping he will talk me out of ever having the capsular contraction stuff done.

But I will say, at the plastics dude, they take full nudies of me from all angles. And I was exactly 10lbs heavier from one set to this time. And the girls said holy hell! Look at how different you look. She showed me from previous to current and she said look how defined you are here. And it was really eye opening. So I've no idea what's going on.

Yes! Exactly! Somewhere in essential 3-5 lbs I've lost an entire size and a half. Things just bag off me! It's so surreal! I can't even figure out the science behind it cuz we're not supposed to be able to be able to have anabolism and catabolism simultaneously. That's why body builders bulk then cut, and bulk and cut. Right?

Swearsies. Was 131 in this picture. Am 130.2 today. I seem to have lost inches mysteriously. I'm not doing anything magical. You know? But it's almost as if I'm losing fat and replacing with muscle without eating more of anything.

after you're fully healed, have them re-tat you and finish the bottom half again? The tat artist will have some awesome ideas!

OMG!!! You look ADORABLE!!!! Sooo sooo cute (the outfit and the figure)!!! I think I could squeeze 1 thigh in there--maybe! If they stretch! LOL.