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Do not take PBing lightly, it is very seriouse if done over an extended period of time! It can cause you to damage your band so badly it must be removed! Everyone has a PB now and then but if they become frequent you MUST see your Dr. Needless to say if you have read this thread you know I feel to self induce a PB is flirting with disaster!

I found my way to this thread so there must be a reason. I feel farther from God than I have ever felt. I am not all together sure why I feel so distant, I just know that I am. I have never been a huge church goer and I am not well versed in the Bible but I have always had an amazing loving relationship with God! But I try to talk and open up my heart to God now and I feel nothing! I start to pray and cannot continue. I am very lost right now. I am bipolar and it has disabled me to where I can no longer work, I now collect disability and live with my 77 yr old Father. I live in constant fear of what will happen to me when he is no longer at my side. All my friends were work related and they are no longer a part of my life and I have no significant other, so to tell you the truth my life is very empty right now. My depression is severe and I am on alot of medications daily that have some unpleasant side effects. I will not lie and say I do not think of ending my life, but they are only thoughts! I know that is the only unforgivable sin. I am not doing well with my band, lots of reasons that I will not go into to keep this thread from being any longer. But I have been banded a year and have only lost 25 pounds. Spiritualy maybe I do not feel worthy of God anymore? I do not know what it is... all I know is that I could use all the prayers I can get to help me pray again. God Bless everyone who has taken the time to read this!

Coming to a theater near you soon! THE HORRORS OF XENICAL!!!! You will cringe at the exsessive gas! You will try to run away but will not be able to hide from from the runny stools!! Your bound to fall prey to the horrific orange oily dicharge! It stains! Oh God it stains! Be prepared Xenical will sneak up on you in broad daylight to do it's dirty deed! No one who takes the pill is safe! Should you choose to proceed with Xenical make sure you have lots toliet paper and a change of undies. This film has beed rated D for DISGUSTING! Ha!

I think newly banded patients should read this thread. PBing is not to be taken lightly and should be understood early on in the journey!

It is the Holiday's and they can often be tough times of the year to get thru for MOST people let alone those of us suffering from bipolar depression! I just want to wish everyone with our disease peace of mind and as much laughter and joy your heart can hold! I know it is not always easy,but I truly do believe that with LOVE all things are possible! Have a Blessed Holiday Season and Be Well!

Okay ! I get it about the EVIL Frosty's! What I want to know is does anybody out there feel better eatng standing up? Thanks!

Joyce, I went back and read my first post to you and I would do it a little different given the chance. I did not mean to preach or lecture to you. I am sorry that it was soo dark and intense! It just that I am so sad and angry when I hear the disease is latching onto someone else! I feel like I am on a crusade fighting it tooth and nail! Everthing I said in the post was true...I just wish I would have sugar coated it a little for you. Forgive me for not doing this before.

This bears repeating DO THIS!!!! Go to the Google Search Engine.....type in the word FALIURE and see what you get! I love it!

No matter how bad you feel you have to get those liquids in! Tiny ,baby sips will do just fine. Do that and you will be up and around in no time. Welcome to Bandland, glad to have you!

Okay this is going to sound weird...but maybe not. I only feel comfortable eating standing up! We will get to the Frostys in a minute. It hurts to eat when I am seated...it is as though my band crimps up or something. My food does not want to GO down or STAY down SITTING down! Does anybody else out there have this funky issue? Okay now the Frosty's there is a major addiction problem! I am on 1000 calories a day and latley I would rather have the Frosty's and then eat nothing for the rest of the day and night! HOW STUPIED IS THAT? But I have not been able to control it, especialy since I got so sick from my band being filled too tight. Regular food just does'nt want to stay down...but those cotton pickin Frosty's sure do! I hope this is truly just a phase that will pass soon. Until then any words of wisdom for me?:nervous

Thanks Wootsie! Have a Wonderful Holiday!Maybe next year we will have someone to smooch under the mistletoe,until then we can direct all that love inward to ourselves! Cheers!

I think this is actualy funny! I got dumped by someone who never even met me!!!!! What the___? I posted on here awhile ago that I had been talking for almost a month with a nice guy from EHarmony. Nice guy.. I just was not crazy about his voice and for some reason I had very little desire to meet him even though he was soooooo nice! Well the universe has a way of putting things in line! I finaly decide I want to meet him, am actualy looking forward to it! And he falls off the face of the earth! I have not heard from him since the week after Thanksgiving! So go figure? I hate this crap it is just too much work! I have decided that if I am supposed to meet someone God will put him in my path! The holidays kill me, I start missing my ex lover of 8 years and get afraid that I will break down and call him....which would be the worst thing I could ever do!!! Those of you who have someone to love count your lucky stars and do not take them for granted. I would rather be alone than be with someone and be unhappy but being alone during the holidays BITES!:cry

Joyce, I am a recovering bulimic I am in no way cured I fight the urge to purge everytime I eat anything! I want to say how proud I am of you that you opened uo your heart and shared your experiece. With that being said let's get REAL about a few thing I know about for sure. If you continue purging, you will loose your band...no if's and's or butt's about it! So if your going to continue just see your Dr and have that puppy taken out now! But in addition you will also loose alot of your physical beauty. Your skin becomes scaly,wrinkles easily and gets a kind of grey color from the dehydration you constantly suffer. This is pretty..you will loose your teeth, not all at once, they slowly rott out from the acid in the vomit you bring up daily into your mouth. Your hair no longer has any shine and thins soo bad you think you are going to go totaly bald....and you might! Your lips stay dry and cracked and no matter how much you brush or gargle you will have the worst breath ever...because you damaged the PH balance in your mouth! Those are just a few of the things to appeal to your vanity. The cold hard truth is if you do not stop purging you will damage vital organs like your heart, liver and your electrolyte system which all can lead to your death. There I said it!! I do not think anyone else has and it needed to be done! You need to seek help NOW! It does not matter how much you think you can stop on your own.....you won't! Been there...doing that! This is a cunning deadly disease that has it's hooks firmly planted in you and you need professional help. I know all too well how hard it is and my heart aches for you. If I could take the first step for you I would! But you must decide it has to stop. Do not let the MONSTER do to you what it did to me! Stop purging NOW!!!! May God Bless You And Guide You.

Let that fear motivate you to gain knowledge you would have probably never have had without this site. "There is nothing to fear but fear itself!"

wootsie73, you will still feel hunger after being banded, just not as much. The band is only a tool. It is only as good as the choices you make for it. The diet pills are just another tool some people choose to use to enhance performance. Good luck on you banding!

I want to board an airline and not have to check my ass as carry on baggae!

I am just like you...I cannot seem to get and keep restriction. I am currently at 1.8 in a 4cc band! That should be plenty but it is not, I can still hold 2 to 3 cups of food. I can... but I do not consume that much for fear of streching my band! Where o where is that so called SWEET SPOT I have read about?

From what my PCP tells me it will be available over the counter next year. What a friggin mess thats going to be! Holy Moly can you imagine a Wal Mart full of that stuff!~ It will give a whole new meaning to the phrase "CLEAN UP ON ASILE 12" Ha! Sorry I could not help myself...rather like when the drug hits ya!

I have taken it 5 times now each time after something high in fat and NOTHING has happend. After hearing all the horror stories I should count my blessings! Ha! Whats the old saying... be careful what ya wish for?

Teresita, count your lucky stars you are not "bulimic" in the true defintion of the word. To be so,you must actualy be self inducing "vomiting" after consuming food. It is the repeated vomiting that is so very harmful to a bulimic. You absolutly in my opinion have an eating disorder that needs attention from a professional! But thank God you are not bulimic! Good luck with your struggle. We are all here to help!

They would be very depressed. Enough said.

Deb, I am really sorry but I have had something very unexpected come up and I am going to need a rain check. My sister and brother in law from WPB are coming in to surprise my Dad { we live together} for the day! I was really looking forward to meeting you and possibly Melody. Let's see if we can get our rain check in before Xmas, that way we each get a new friend as a present to ourselves! Ho Ho Ho!

Coffee talk sounds good to me! Lets get together on details. Hope you have fun in St Aug!

It happens to me too! I wake up soo hungry, it is like a bad dream!!

So far I am starting to think it should have stayed in Turkey! NOT PRETTY! Ha!