Kelliebelly

Thanks for the thoughts Candy. I have explored my feelings and thoughts on Paul. I love him so much, he has been through my side through all this. My past 2 relationships were extremely abusive emotional and physically. I never thought Id have a normal relationship that didnt involve violence. He turned my life around for the better, I actually when I htink about owe him everything....thats why I feel so bad about how I feel. Its not him that makes me pysically ill, its the thought of sex, not just with him..sex in general. I spose this is getting right off and I am babbling on, but I know in myself it is not Paul, its me. I just got to work out how to fix it. Thanks for the suggestions Hugs all

I understand what you are saying, I started on Anti Depressants after having a stillborn child. I waited a few years in between and my life ended up in the toilet because I didnt seek help for the grieving and tried to deal with it myself. I am really sorry about your daughter but I am sure she is looking down and very proud of you right now.

Alexra...every word you said could have some from my mouth and Sarah, I do that all the time. I am sure Paul is sick of me asking how am I compared to her?? I cant see the difference is the mirror or pics. I know my clothes dont fit me anymore but I just cant see it. I think one thing that kinda made me see how much weight I had lost but not actually what I look like now is putting 2 big pics of me before and now together and really examining them. I do agree it is going to take time for our head to catch up, you have lost an amazing amount of weight in a short amount of time.

I take care of myself more now too, but I feel highly uncomfortable with the words "I love myself". I always have and probably always will. I pick at every bad thing about myself and I struggle with those quizes that sk you to write 5 things you like about yourself, I end up making them up. I am working on it though.

Right on...I am thinking some before and after pics of those "valuable" assets is in order so others can see the difference. Whatcha think??? Whats good for the goose and all that? :clap2: :clap2: :clap2:

Yea...you were spose to get the band so you could meet all us wonderful people from all walks of life all over the world. You are an inspiration.

I am in so much trouble if my boobs are my most valuable asset

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Before ( @ ) Y ( @ ) and After (@)Y(@)

Wow, that would make me nearly a virgin again, my poor Dh.

Hey everyone, I just got back from the Drs and told her about it and suggested they check my hormones. She said that it wouldnt be an accurate reading as I am on the pill. The only thing she could think of is that because I am on the pill and I was bigger it didnt effect me as much but no that I have lost weight the stronger pill is giving me more side effects. At her suggestion I will discontinue the pill for a month or 2 and see how it goes. I am not having sex anyway so I cant get preggers. She has given me a form to get some things checked though, I am not sure what they are so Ill just type them and maybe someone will know- FBE, E/LFTs, ESR, TSH, Glucose(fasting) iron studies, B12 Folate. So is this means anything to anyone let me know please . I was kind of hoping to find out some exact answers and come away with something that will make it all better. I will give this pill thing a try and get these tests done and see how they go. She also asked me how does it feel when I think about sex, I told her it makes me sick. She said so you get physically sick thinking about it. I said no but close...:xena_banana: She suggested I talk to Paul and forbid sex for 1 month we are allowed to do everything else but have sex - she suggested we masturbate each other...sorry if that is TMI...I am sitting her thinking if I could be bothered masturbating him or me Id just have sex. Oh well back to the drawing board. Hopefully we will work something out. Thanks for all the suggestions...and I really like the name Duty f*&k vines...good one :Banane03:

Im 2 hrs from Sydney...banded April 05 and down 30kgs...slow and steady I say. If I got off my big fat butt and exercised it would be faster.

*sigh* I dont have enough notice to jump on the plane....ohhhh you guys, I wanna come. Next time can we meet half way hehe Have fun and pleassseeee take pics.

I paid $14000 self pay. I was thinking of waiting the 12mths till private health kicked in but then that would be another excuse to eat myslef silly for 12mths.

Hi Trish I am not really that close, I am about 2 hrs off Sydney in Newcastle. My other half is actually is Bathurst as we speak working away again...always away working *sigh* . As fir only losing 9kgs, thats 9kgs gone forever, and until you are properly restricted the band isnt really working its full potential for us. Proper restriction and a bit of exercise *like I can talk* and wahlahhhh you are on your way. Hope to see you around more.

I have a dolphin on one ankle and a japanese symbol for love on the other with Pauls name under it. They never changed much with weight loss or gain, but I have always wanted to get one on my lower back...it is what I will reward myself with at goal. How beautiful its going to look when I am 90 hehe.

After seeing Heathergurls V day present to her hubby maybe I should be talking to her about my problem hehe

Another thread prompted me to start my own thread. Since being banded and losing weight I have totally lost my libido. I feel like it zilch, but may do it for my other half once a month or so because the poor guys needs it ...so he says. Anyway if you dont find it too personal can you let me know if this has happened to you. I know most people I have talked to have had a huge boost in their drive since losing weight, I wish it was me. Is there any natural or prescription enhancers or things to put you in the mood? Help me please, my wedding is in September and I know I am going to have to do it then and I would really like to enjoy it too :Banane23: Delarla...i know you have got some ideas coming my way ...I hope :clap2:

Wow, what are you guys doing, since losing weight I have lost all but my libido. I feel like it if I am lucky once a month or so, much less than before I lost weight. I even went to the health food shop the other day and had a discreet look around to see if there was any natural type viagra for women I dont know whats wrong with me, but my other half sure isnt impressed...especially considering we are getting married in September and I know thats going to be one time I cant get out of *sigh* I think I will start my own thread of ideas or suggestions.

March 16th is when my body is going to be chopped to pieces and sewn back together again. I am excited but extremely scared. I have to go have some professional befores done and then the same after, plus he organises another appointment before hand to really explain that I know what I am getting myself into and the pain levels. I dont know whether to :clap2: or :cry :phanvan :think .

Hi I have been banded 10 mths and have lost 62lbs, but could have been more if I exercised and skipped chocolate 3 times a week.

I am not at max but I have the 10ml band and I have 9.6mls. It took me getting to this point to have decent lasting restriction. My Dr said the higher you get the less amount it takes to feel some restriction..ie If I had another fill maybe .3 or .4 would top me up whereas getting to this stage would take a fill of 2 or 3 mls to feel anything. I lso have a friend who has the same band she had her band topped up to 12mls 2 weeks ago and has restriction FINALLY...but still not the "sweet" spot. She has had tests and endos etc done and everything is fine...its just taking her longer. Good Luck

I used to be so ashamed of myself. I was always looking inward and judging myself more than anyone could ever judge me. I felt so much shame. Now, I feel pride. Pride is a new feeling for me and I am uncomfortable. I have also found that some people are uncomfortable with me feeling prideful. Huh? I know! I have some friends who get squeemish when I tell them about something exciting that happened to me...it's almost like they would rather not hear it. So, I've stopped telling the people that react that way to me things. I thought it was me- was I getting a high and mighty attitude about myself? Was I braging? No- I was just trying to process this new feeling, that's all. I loved your post, especially the above part. I could have written it myself. Certain "friends"come into mind when I read it. I have actually stopped and thought...do they think I am braging because that is how I feel they feel. I just get so excited, especially when I reach a mini goal or NSV and I want to share it with my friends, but alot of them really dont seem to want to hear it. Thanks for your post...From me its all DITTO!!! Especially the new feeling of pride, hopefully one day we can embrace it.

I am the same when I was at a restaurant, I would look for what looked like the hugest most fattening meal. Now I look for fish ro chicken. As for cravings, I dont crave most of the junk I use to...I still crave chocolate a bit. Before banding I really was never into crackers or cheese, now I seem to have a thing for them, I was never into ice cream, now I love it. I know that at least twice a week or so we had takeaway, alternating between KFC, pizza and chinese, now we are lucky to have it twice a month....and I dont crave it all. I wish I craved fruit, I dont like many fruits. I love all vegies though.

I am petrified of tidal waves, always have been. I am half an hr from the beach but still petrified when I am anywhere near one that a tidal wave will come. I am not too fond of the dark either.